K.B.
Well, I feel really bad for you and I totally understand what you are going through. I had a great pregnancy, delivery, and first year (for the most part) with my first daughter. Then with my second one I had problems pretty much the whole first eight months. I thought...this couldn't possibly get worse. The delivery was a nightmare and I didn't feel connected to the process at all, then when she was born I held her, but I didn't feel the NEED to, you know? She is a very difficult child, she cries all the time and I just don't know what to do about it. Then, I know this sounds crazy, she got a really bad cold about a week ago and I just sat with her. When she cried I got her, when she wanted to play I played with her, I know that I can't do it all the time, but for the first time I think she realized that I was going to be there for her. Now, she cries Ma-Ma not Da-Da and she smiles sooo big when I get her from daycare. I don't know what happened, but something just clicked, I don't know if it was so much her as it was me. I have also started college again and I think the "me" time has helped with the stress and patience level. I don't know what advice to give you, just that you are not alone. "This too shall pass!" Good luck! If you ever need to chat my email is ____@____.com, I also have messenger for msn and hotmail. Just let me know!