If you are, then CONGRATS! Every baby is a blessing.
Now... If birth control really works that poorly for you, then maybe it's time to take control of your own destiny. Have you ever read Taking Control of Your Fertility? I too was on BC for years, but after reading that book I cried. All those years of hating BC and it wasn't necessary. Each woman is capable of taking control of her own body and only letting it get pregnant when she wants it to. I doubted the method, but I just used it for a month to get pregnant. Guess what? After 8 months of trying to concieve... I'm pregnant! In ONE month. It's easy and it's empowering to figure out that you CAN do it!! There are hundreds (possible thousands) that use the method either for birth control or to get pregnant. I encourage you to try it.