I know you are in a supremely stressful situation. Know that the tests are not 100% accurate, so their 30% is their best guess.
As a mom of a child with special needs, know that you will love your baby because she is a unique creature, a baby, not because she appears physically perfect at this time.
There are thousands of families on adoption lists who would love to welcome your baby in to their home - hundreds who would adore your child with even the most intensive special needs.
Here is the hard word - but better spoken now. If doctors gave any parent a list of possible things our kids would do, of the things we did as a child/young adult - would any of us have children? No! Because we would be imagining all the horrid things (sneaking out to party, driving while under the influence, cheating on tests, yelling 'I hate you!', etc) without knowing deeply that the life we carried was unique and already full of love for us - despite all our own faults and failings.
Once you are carrying a baby, life changes unalterably. There is another human who depends on you completely and loves you without question or reserve. It is no longer about us, what we think we can handle; it is about protecting and providing for and nurturing that precious little person who even now has fingernails (which will need trimming at birth!), her precious heartbeat, all the little organs, her closed eyes, her little toes and fingers!
You can do it, mom!
With love and support,
E.