D.L.
I can completly understand where you are coming from. I must say though the only way to know and not to wonder if your husband is comparing is to ask. Personally I would want to know if I'm pleasing my husband or not so I would just ask and hope that he is giving me a honest answer. And if the answer is no ask him what does he want you to do differently. There is nothing wrong with a husband and wife discussing their sexual desires and wants. If you don't know how to do something learn how to do it or if he wants something that is just far from what you are willing to do let him know and ya'll discuss what could be done to help that issue or to work around that thing he wants. If you are took embarrassed to ask him or to do hands on excercises with him read about it and find out what's good for you. I think that for the most part the thing that is holding you up is this is something new for you since you had never done it before and you have to find out what you like and what you want done before you can be happy with your sex life. Good luck!