Pick your head up, you seem to be trying to do right by your children and you should be proud of that! We see on the news all the time, parents who intentionally hurt their children, accidents happen, my kids have gotten hurt, that is part of being a kid! My daughters both had many trips to the ER, especially my youngest. She started going to the Er once a month when she was about 9 months with UTI's and I questioned what I was doing wrong, why it kept happening, later we found out it was a genetic disorder, nothing I did, but I remmeber that feeling of guilt, that fear of knowing something is wrong, but I learned to find comfort in the fact that kids are kids and they get sick, they get hurt, my mom tells stories all the time of our trips to hte ER, it is part of being a kid, it is not a reflection of your parenting. Remember too, your baby is healthy, even with stitches. While I was at Childrens Memorial, I became very humble, seeing kids who are terminally ill, I still cried and paced when my girls went into surgery, that is normal, but in my heart I knew I was lucky, a kidney surgery is a walk in the park compared to chemotherapy or brain tumors. I dont know if this helped at all, but all I can say is, if you are waking up every day wanting to do right by your children, then you are being a great parent!
M.
Mother of 2 girls
4th grade teacher