K.M.
Hi R.,
I understand your dilemma as well and think you should go with your gutt feelings and get yourself someone else to care for your child. I work for an aupair agency located in lower Westchester and should you want to look into this program I will be more then happy to help. It is affordable, flexible childcare that sounds like it would fit your needs and you would gain a young energetic person who can also introduce your child to another culture living in your home. Right now there is no fee for applying and you will not be charged any money before you have found an aupair that fits your family, so should you decide this was not for you there is no money lost. Please check out our web site and also let me know if you have any questions for me. www.aupaircare.com
Best of luck.