This morning I woke up to the sound of the rain, so many birthdays I would be told the same story over & over about how on the way for my mom to deliver me, she made my dad pull over at a store to buy my older brother & sister rainboots. My mom passed away 15 yrs ago and although Christmas is up there, I think my birthday is the one day I could truly do w/out any reminders of. But then I begin thinking of what it was like, every day @ 2:40 PM, no matter where I worked my mom would call me & sing Happy Birthday :) Sometimes I wonder what she would look like, what my life would be like if she hadn't gotten so sick, how much differently I would have raised my 14 yr old who I had just 3 weeks after her passing & what a kick she'd get out of my 8 yr old!. But then I can feel the strength that she put inside of me those 27 years that she was alive I miss her so much every day, but I am so proud to say that she raised me so that I could make it on my own. She was an amazing woman and I was so blessed to have had such a wonderful mom all those years.
Happy birthday! My birthday was yesterday and I feel the same way about my dad. He died 7 years ago just a month before I had my 1st child. Know you are not alone. Hope your day is a great one and full of happy memories.
Wrapping my arms around you. I know your Mom is up there smiling down
on you with a pumped up chest because she is so very proud of you.
Happy birthday an hour and 7 minutes early. At 2:40 I will definitely think of you.
Happy Birthday, and that is a heartwarming story :)
Gerri:
Happy birthday!!
I'm sorry for your loss - even now...that's got to be a struggle!!
It sounds like your mom's memory will be eternal and she will live on through you and your children!!
God Bless!!
It's 2:40....Happy Birthday Gerri! I'm sure you can feel mom's love around you at this moment.
I feel the same way about my mom. No one will ever love me like that again right? Our memory of our moms lives within us, if it weren't for them, we wouldn't be who we are.
Happy Birthday!
My birthday was just last week and even at my age I still miss my parents something awful. But I know they're looking down on me and they'd be very proud of how well my kids have turned out, etc. It's all because of how they raised me!!!
I'm going to go grab some more tissues now!! lol!!
I believe she heard you and says, "Happy Birthday, my precious one." I go through the same thing. I know my mom's up there watching and I know my father's there too. There are times when I so wish my son could see them, so he would have a different perspective of what grandparents can be like. They are so different from my hubby's mom and hubby. All I can do is tell him stories of my parents and my grandmother. I often tell him how his grandfather was a WWII vet and how his grandmother could cook circles around anybody. I tell him about the crazy things his great granmother used to do, that would make us laugh. I have many momentos hanging on the walls from my grandmother....St. Cecilia hangs in the leasure room, Raphael 's Madonna hangs in the vestibule, Great Uncle John and Cupid hang in the hallway....I still use my mother's mixing bowls and remember watching my father fix things which is how I know how to fix things too...Yep, memories do help keep us warm inside. Unfortunately, most of the time, my son's just too busy to listen or care.
Hugs and happy birthday!
My dad passed just 7 weeks after my daughter (first child) was born and he was in the hospital on my birthday and didn't even know it was my birthday. My birthday is also a reminder of those hard things and my dad was like your mom in the sense that he would always call me and tell me the story of my birth. I pretended it was annoying, of course, all through my childhood and teen years but it was really sweet every time. Each year on my birthday it is one of the hardest times and I feel so sad I don't get to hear that story anymore. The 5th anniversary of my dad's death is just around the corner so I feel your pain! I've had a second child since then and I often wonder the same things as you. Have a great day though because your mom helped create you and your wonderfulness! Share the love with your own kiddos and have a happy birthday!
I believe she is looking down and she knows.
Her memory lives on in your being. She instilled so much in you. You carry that with you......always.
Sending you warm hugs
Hi Gerri,
What a beautiful and thoughtful post...It is so nice to read things like that once in a while...Have a nice birthday!...I am sure your mom is with you celebrating such a sweet and thankful daughter.....
I imagine what you feel..I lost my mom 3 years ago, and I still feel her presence, hear her wise words, and smell her perfume. As yourself, I wonder what our lives would be, especially my kids' spending time with her and myself enjoying her pacific temper and patience...
Blessings,
This is s a precious post. I hope that you know that it is possible that she looks down on you and your daughter from afar and sends her love and guidance. It is a testament to her that you still feel so strongly and think about her so much even now.
This life is just a blink of an eye, Gerri, in the grand scheme of things. Live it without fear or regret - that is what she would want. And smile when you see things that remind you of her. She would want that too.
Hugs~
Dawn
