Hi K.,
My name is S. and I am a parent of two teenagers and one soon to enter the teen years. I have all daughters.
I have not been through a divorce so cannot understand that side of it, but I it is hard dealing with the teen years. I've heard one guy (Dr./psychologist) refer to it as 'riding the rapids' and, 'just try to make it out alive'! ;o)
But seriously, my husband does come from a divorced family and he had a hard time of it. His Mom really made him (and his sibs) feel bad about seeing their Dad at all.
I don't know...I hate to tell you what to do; but I think that making such final statements is hard, ya know. Have you thought of reaching out to her yourself? She may just be following your advice and not calling you as you told her as:
'when she left I told her never to call me or to come see me again.'
I'm guessing you both need each other even though you're going through something really hard and difficult. Is there a way you could still love her and be there for her even though her choice to live with her dad hurts?
I've always heard that kids push us away during these years, but they really want to know we still love and care about them no matter what, unconditionally. It's part of their becoming independent...the pushing away....and becoming 'adults'.
Also, I've heard people and kids save their worst behavior for those they feel safest with.
If you want I could send you a copy of something that I read in book on forgiveness that really struck me lately. It's long but really good. Let me know.
Have you ever thought of talking to a counselor maybe on your own or with her? Or having her go? I think school counselors are trained to help with these matters and they are free and some schools have classes in the evenings or after school to help kids going through divorce (support there to of other kids going through it).
Anyhow, hope this helps in some way.
Please take what you like and leave the rest.
Blessings dear.
S.