C.J.
ok.. First of all.. I did the same thing with my baby. I too tried to breastfeed.. I wasnt producing enough, and then i would have to supplement at every feeding with formula. I finally decided that this was too much work, and i didnt know how much she was getting so it was better just to go bottle. Post pardum is a serious thing, I had it with my 2nd child.. in regards to that, you need to contact your OBGYN and discuss how you are feeling with him/her. Be honest with your husband, are you depressed, do u feel like harming yourself or your baby, dont be ashamed, be honest. And dont be so hard on yourself, having a baby, dealing with other children, being up in the middle of the night for feedings, up during the day with another child, the chemical changes that are going on in your body are all alot to deal with at once. Good Luck to you, feel free to contact me if you need someone to talk to you. I have been there and its a very scary place to be.. dont go through it alone.