First thing - your husband could gain from some sensitiviy training...but in the same light - he may just think that being hard on you is his best way for him to help you. Is your husband overweight too, even a little? If so - it may benefit you to "give him some of his own medicine" and when he gets offended about it, tell him how you feel when he says those things to you.
As for your weight. Losing it is really a lot easier than you think. Just stop eating the things that are bad for you. Exercise helps of course and you need to build muscle for permanent weight loss, but your energy level is going to come from food - and you need more energy first so you can get to exercising. When you eat the right foods your body responds amazingly well. You will be bursting with energy and positive self worth.
First, stop buying the junk. And the junk that's at home - either give it away to those in need, or trash it. Make your home a "no junk zone." That includes almost anything prepared, like: cereal, snack mix, cookies, chips, potato buds, cakes, sugared peanut butter, white pasta, anything other than whole-grain breads, salad dressings, bbq sauce, ketchup, etc.
Ingredients to look out for: high fructose corn syrup, monosodium glutamate, soy, wheat flour, enriched flour, hydorgenated oil, preservatives, food coloring. BAD BAD BAD! None of this is from the earth. Your body is an organic organism - it wants and craves what the earth produces...not what's packaged in some facility 2000 miles from you.
Change the way you shop. Find a farmers market or co-op that offers mostly produce. Go there first. Buy 2 weeks of produce - try to stick to about $70-80 for a family of 6. Then shop the deals. Look for lean meats (hamburger only if it is 90% lean or better) and other protein sources like beans, hummus, a little tofu if you like it, etc. Then your carbs - whole grain breads and pastas only. 60% of your food shopping should be produce, 20% protein, and 10% carbs. If it looks different than this - you need to change your priorities. DO NOT buy junk food just because it's cheap and your kids and husband like it. Take a stand - it's your house, your body, your family.
How to prepare your meals:
45% protein: lean meat, beans, hummus, avocado
35% fiber: vegetables - there is really no substitute
20% carbs: fruit, whole grain bread or pasta (occasionally), brown rice, baked potatoe, yams
Your meals should be simple, a few examples:
Dinners or Lunch:
Meat and vegetables sautee'd in olive oil and a little seasoning. Serve over brown rice with a little bit of soy sauce or bragg's liquid aminos.
1/2 cubed salted avocado on 1 pc whole grain toast (open faced). Green salad with kidney beans. Dressing is 1 lime, juiced - stire in 1 tblsp hummus and drizzle.
Roasted cauliflower pasta: chop and add cubed zucchini and yellow squash. Season with garlic salt, parsley, and pepper. Broil in oven for up to 20 minutes until golden brown on edges. Sautee 1 small chicken breast in olive oil and water. And serve meat and veggies over a small portion of whole grain pasta. Squeeze lemon juice on top.
Mexican: Lean fajita meat - sautee'd. Stir-fried peppers, onions, and fresh garlic. "Rice" cauliflower cooked like mexican rice (recipes online). Black beans boiled (add a little mozzarella cheese or sour cream) to make them creamy. Fresh Guacamole and salsa. Skip the chips and dip with sliced jicama.
Breakfast:
1 egg, 3 egg whites. Broccoli, mushroom, onion. Scramble together. Season with a little hot sauce. Fruit on the side.
1/2 cup granola. 1/4 cup non-fat milk or 1 serving yogurt. Add milled flax seed for nutritional value.
Smoothies:
1 scoop vanilla or coconut flavored protein powder
8 ice cubes
1/2 cup water (less if you are using melon)
1 tsp vanilla or coconut extract
1/4 cup oats (makes it creamy and is added fiber!)
1 packet no calorie sweetener like stevia, splenda, or pureVia
2 or 3 types of fruit like...
1/2 banana chopped up, 5 strawberries, 1/4 cup frozen blueberries, 6 blackberries, 1/2 cup melon cubes, 1/4 apple skinless and chopped up, 1/4 cup mango cubes, etc.
Snacks:
Vegetable sticks with hummus:
carrots, celery, cucumber, zucchini, egg plant, jicama
Any single fruit - except oranges (too much sugar).
1 baked potato with olive oil, green onions, parsley, garlic salt and pepper
The trick is to keep your meals simple, light, low-fat (except the olive oil used to cook them in or their natural oils like avocado has), and when home - make everything from scratch. UTILIZE the internet for ideas on using foods you know nothing about - or for finding healthier takes on classic favorites.
Invest in a good tasting chocolate protein powder - you can guzzle this instead when a sweets craving strikes. Find a multi-vitamin that works for you. Consider doing a colon cleanse to give yourself a jump start. Find a physical activity that entertains you: class aerobics, yoga, kickboxing, jogging, walking, hiking.
When you go out to eat...enjoy yourself. BUT don't overeat. In fact, eat less than you think you should and bring the rest home as leftovers for the kids to scavage on. All restaurant food is laden with ingredients and calories beyond what we presume. So eat less than you think a serving is and stop. If you need dessert, order a fruit cup. Or stop by your local Jamba on the way home and split the lowest calorie smoothie they have.
Fast food: Stay away from it as much as possible...but even I admit that it has it's place. Like when traveling. If you must order fast food, here are the options: Order a burger with lettuce, tomato, onion, but hold the condiments, and ask for it to be made protein/low carb style - add jalepenos if you like it spicy! Do not order fries. Ask for a cup of water or iced tea - instead of soda. If you opt for a salad, only use 1/3 of the dressing packet, and get your chicken grilled instead of crispy.
You deserve to feel good about yourself - and you'll be helping your family form lifelong healthy habits too. When your husband sees that you are making an effort for positive change - he will do one of two things: join you, or complain that he is having to change too. If he complains, tell him he is not being supportive of your goals...that will hurt him where it counts and hopefully he will stop with the attitude.
An easy goal to set is to walk a 5k. Not jog - just walk it. Drive around your neighborhood and see how far 1.6 miles is from your house. Start walking there and back 2-3 days a week. You'll be ready before you know it - and it'll be for a good cause - a charity and YOU. Better yet - get some neighbor friends to join you. There is power in peer pressure.
Good luck and best to you and your family!
If you are interested, I keep a little hobby blog that chronicles my cooking adventures - you are welcome to use any of my suggestions. I hope you find success!
http://quicklynutritiousanddelicious.blogspot.com/