Oh Lord Give Me Strength

Updated on February 28, 2014
T.T. asks from San Antonio, TX
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Oh Lord Give me Strength

If you look at some of my old posts, my husband and I have been having issues for a while. Counseling together and separate only helped for a while at a time. He is manipulative, and charismatic. I am tired of being lied to for the “protection” of my feelings. Basically Lying by Omission.
“I didn’t tell you I was frequenting strip clubs because I didn’t want to make you sad”
“I didn’t tell you I quit the Union because I didn’t want you to worry”
“I didn’t tell you the doc told me I am borderline diabetic because you stress too much”
“I didn’t tell you I partnered with a friend to sell sex toys online because (how knows, I’ll find that out tonight)”
So……I AM DONE, no more counseling no more “I’m sorry” I really don’t care if I “Rip this family apart”
I know he will blame me because I haven’t been intimate with him since December, and before then it was like once a month, we were at the point where he turns me off. This “new business venture” was the last straw.
He has no idea I know, I only know because he TEXTED A FEMALE friend of mine, he also tells he she is “fine as hell” “hot a$$” and that is my fault too because I don’t give him enough attention.

QUESTION HERE: Women and Men who have gone through a messy divorce, HOW DO YOU GET THRU IT???
I am sitting at my desk waiting for 5 o’clock and I am praying for strength because he knows how to manipulate me, he knows how to scare me.

AND FOR THOSE WHO ARE JUST GOING TO BASH ME AND CALL ME NAMES, BACK OFF, THAT IS NOT THE LEAST BIT HELPFUL, SOME OF Y'ALL REALLY MAKE SOMEONE SLASH THEIR OWN WRISTS

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O.O.

answers from Los Angeles on

Ugh.
He sounds like a real prize.
Seems to me like you've tried, really tried.
At that point you can walk away with a clean conscience.
There ARE people that are just pathological liars...and they won't change.
That's all I have to offer.
Good luck!

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A.M.

answers from Washington DC on

I got through mine by focusing on my kids.

BTW, let go of the guilt over not being more intimate more often. It's not an excuse for his behavior.

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B.C.

answers from Norfolk on

Talk to a women's shelter, get a lawyer, make your escape plan and then do it.
Don' tell him about it - he can't manipulate what he knows nothing about.
It's not so much ripping a family apart as a precision surgery to remove him from it.
You are 'freeing' him so he can pursue what ever the heck he wants and you don't have to know or care about it.
Continue counseling on your own so you can heal emotionally while you wait several years before dating or finding another relationship.

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T.N.

answers from Albany on

Hi T., I understand you are very frustrated and need to rant. It does sound like he has pretty much checked out of this marriage.

But, please, before you do ANYTHING, go to a consult with a family law attorney. Many will offer a free consult, but keep in mind you get what you pay for. Pick one out of the phone book if you have to.

Most will charge a small-ish fee that will be used towards their overall fee if you retain them. $200-400 I'd say.

Then you will better understand your rights and responsibilities in the event of separation or divorce, ok? Write down your questions, find the answer to all your What Ifs. Every situation is different, so it's hard for us to tell you how it might be for you.

Another positive effect of this, is you may feel like you finally have someone on your side.

I see no need to tell him about this meeting, especially if he tends to get angry.

Until then, lay low, ok? Go through the motions, I know you have Just About Had It, but it's clear communication between you has already broken down completely.

Be good to yourself, maybe go see your own counselor, ok?

:)

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M.L.

answers from Cleveland on

honestly, I would call a crisis shelter and talk to someone about how to protect yourself and what lawyer they recommend, and put to gether a plan before you storm out. It might be over but get yourself together first so he is Less able to manipulate you. good luck

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H.W.

answers from Portland on

I got through a sad divorce with a guy who blamed everything on me -- I got through it with the support of a counselor. She helped me to see that while the marriage had failed, I had done a good thing in leaving.That the leaving in and of itself wasn't failure, it was self-preservation.

I'd encourage you to find support sources,and consider talking to a counselor or therapist. Why? So you can get to the bottom of *why* you were in the relationship with your husband in the first place and how to go forward in a healthy way so you don't make this mistake (or another big one) again.

I also want to say this: it is NEVER one spouse's fault that the other one cheats or flirts around and tries to hook up. NEVER. I know how sex sort of shrivels up and dies toward the end of a marriage, and really, that has a lot more to do with the other behaviors which put you off being intimate with him than it does with YOU, per se. (You don't have to be frigid to be completely put off by someone due to their behavior.) If a guy senses that his wife isn't interested and he really wants to change the situation, a good conversation is always better than just catting around. So, all that to say, the fact that he's contacting other women is not your fault. It's his. Period.

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M.S.

answers from Kansas City on

No one said it will be easy, but YOU CAN DO IT and you will be a better person for it. Get a lawyer and have a PLAN before he gets served divorce papers.

I went through horrible and messy, embarrassing divorce, years ago and thought I was so far in the hole, I couldn't see daylight. Fortunately I had a job, good friends and family who were there for me.
In the darkest of days, depressed, in financial ruins, fearing for my life and threats to my family, I stood up to the creep and put a stop to his nonsense, not only for myself, but for others he had involved.
Along the way, I met wonderful people, and in spite of the hardships, I had some very wonderful experiences I would have otherwise missed out on. I found out my strengths and believe me, I BECAME STRONG, I became a better person because of it. Today 30 years later, I am better off without a relationship or marriage than it ever was together.

Don't wait another day to turn your life around, it isn't worth it to put up with the garbage. Of course there will be times that you will question many things through the process, but without a doubt, down the road, you will look back on this and wonder why you waited so long.

Best wishes and get going!

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Y.M.

answers from Iowa City on

Get an attorney and do what he or she tells you to do.

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A.V.

answers from Washington DC on

Rally your supporters, your resources, and stop communicating with him unless you absolutely need to for things like mediation and child issues. Get everything in writing, legally. Know your rights. Get a lawyer.

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D.D.

answers from New York on

He's not telling lies to protect your feelings. He's telling lies because he's being deceptive in hopes that he won't get caught. You need to put yourself and your children first and if that means life without your husband then that's what you need to do. Please know that nothing you've done or said would have really made an impact on this situation. Stand your ground and get on with your life.

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ღ.7.

answers from Oklahoma City on

Oh my goodness! What a horrible situation he's put you in!
Please don't let him manipulate you anymore and don't let him turn it around on you. He obviously has problems and you can't fix that.
I'd be gone if I were in your situation....
I'll keep you in my prayers!

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V.S.

answers from Reading on

Who's bashing you?! Who's calling you names?!

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T.F.

answers from Dallas on

I read through each response before I replied due to your all CAPS statement on bashing you and calling you names.

I've not read ONE response bashing you or calling you names.

I have read several logical responses to help you gain footing in this situation in order to attain help.

Listen to the responses you have.... Get legal help, go to a shelter, get out and don't be a victim

Best wishes

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E.B.

answers from Beaumont on

You need to rally those who care about you and tap into their strength. You need out of this environment. It's toxic. I am so sorry. I would get a lawyer and make a plan for your life without him. Please stay strong and take steps to change your life now. I will pray for you.

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❤.M.

answers from Los Angeles on

Schedule an appt w/a divorce lawyer. Take a list of questions to ask, write
down all advice given.
Be sure you have copies of all important paperwork (you can always put
the originals back if you need to).
Save your money.
Do not engage in any conflict.
Try to diffuse any argument.
Have a mental list of things you would want to take with you.
You can keep important documents of your own at work.
Go see a counselor for yourself. You don't have to tell him you are doing
this.
I wish you the best of luck honey. Hang in there. Pray. I will pray for you
too.

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S.T.

answers from Washington DC on

sorry about your situation.
read all the responses- have no clue who is making you yell.
khairete
S.

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K.D.

answers from Killeen on

I hope I'm not too late with my response. I always suggest an article titled Narcissism in the Pulpit and while, in context, it is about pastors; the majority of its content are quotes from narcissism experts. I think you will find it very helpful and not at all preachy. :) http://www.epiclesis.org/index.php/about-us/resources/52-...

Next read some articles about emotional manipulation. Hopefully you can find some good ones that aren't just extended rants but help equip you for handling the situation at hand. Also, some of the books by Dr. Brenne Brown on shame and guilt might help.

If you can afford it, get a private investigator. That is all the advice I have for you at the moment. I'm pulling for you.

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M.B.

answers from Beaumont on

You are doing the right thing. I would need the support of a good counselor to get through it. I also journal which helps me process things. You are doing the right thing. He is a scum bag and is making you feel crazy when you are not. The more you take steps to get away from him the more sane you will feel. I do send warm thoughts and lift you up today and send strength your way. So sorry for this but it will get better. Take one step at a time and one day at a time but do it.

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C.

answers from Houston on

I don't have divorce advice for you, but wanted to let you know that God does hear your cry for strength...His strength and His love are available. I am a big advocate for working out marriage issues when it's possible, but I can't say when that's possible. So while you are dealing with a marriage where love is absent, and possibly a divorce, just remember how much God loves you. Your circumstances aren't a gauge of that love. I used to have a really hard time accepting that. So I wanted to share a free ebook I read a few weeks ago that was really life-changing for my personal life. It's not a marriage book. It's just a book that I think could provide you much comfort and strength in this time when you are crying out for it. And it's free! It's simply called "He Loves Me." Prayers for you and your family.

http://www.lifestream.org/sites/default/files/--pdf/he_lo...

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C.B.

answers from San Francisco on

You get through it just like an addict gets through a day sober - one minute, one hour, one day at a time. Put one foot in front of the other; tackle things as they come and don't look back. It won't be long and you will suddenly realize you have come a long way and life is better. Manipulation you can deal with, especially since you know that's his M.O. But I don't know what you mean by scare you. If you think it will get violent, don't go home. Send him a text telling him you're done AFTER you go to the bank and take out exactly 1/2 of any funds in the bank. Then get yourself to a divorce lawyer and get exclusive possession of the home. You really don't have to confront him face-to-face if it is not safe to do so.

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M.R.

answers from San Antonio on

What comes out of someone else's mouth is a reflection of their heart, not yours. Lisa terkuerst

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