L.L.
I definately understand when you say emotional rollercoaster! Although my husband and I have never split up we have mentioned it and we have only been married for a little over 1 year. There is a definate lack of communication in our relationship. I also have a 1 yr old and another baby on the way. so my advice is to Talk to him... but dont give up when he doesn't listen. It sounds to me like if you don't work this out you two are going to seperate. So what do you have to lose. If he wants you to stay around there has to be a reason as to why he feels that way. Ask him why he doesn't want you to leave? The answer to that question will be able to direct you to the next step. (maybe its for your son, or so he isn't alone, or maybe it is because he does love youand wants to work things out he just doesn't know how to go about it)If you have questions then ask them. If he can't respect how you feel about things then that shows how much he is willing to work with you on this. You should have access to his e-mail if you want. If there is nothing going on now then you seeing that will help with that area. Maybe you should discuss him finding a new job. You come before money!!! There are plenty of people who work average paying jobs (in their hometown) that make it just fine finacially. If this job is so important that he is willing to lose you for it then that shows you there where you two stand as a married couple. You have to find that trust in your relationship again or things will never get better. Money isn't everything. GOD will provide. PRAY about this..and pray hard. Your baby needs a mommy and a daddy. But unfortunately, if you aren't happy your son will know. Do what your heart tells you. I am from a broken home and I have a wonderful step-dad that loves me like I am his own. I was 2 when my parents split and I am glad for that because I don't remember it all. I also have a very good relationship with my father. So in my situation with my parents it just wasn't meant for them to be together. And everything worked out for the best. Good luck. if you need to talk I will listen.