K.:
Hello! I truly feel for you. This is a hard situation to be in. My husband and I wanted four kids - two boys and two girls. We've been pregnant five times and have two beautiful boys. I lost Alexis at 6 months gestation - I felt her moving and kicking, etc. The other two were lost at 3 and 4 months. We both believe that God was telling us two was enough.
Our first son was a TOTAL joy - slept the night through at 6 weeks, was always laughing, RARELY cried, etc. our second son - oie! If he had been our first, we probably would've scrapped plans for anymore! He hated his dad for the first year of his life (no joke - would cry the moment he walked in the room, etc.) he couldn't lay down to sleep, spent the first year sleeping in a car seat or bouncy chair. This ended up being his ear canals were not fully developed and the pressure could not be released - he had tubes put in his ears and was EXACTLY like his older brother from that point on - rarely cried, VERY happy and all was well.
Both my boys were preemies. Our first was six weeks early - and we were expecting that - he was excited to come out as we were to have him! (it took us four years to get pregnant!)
Our second was a TOTAL surprise preemie and had pneumonia and stopped breathing in the hospital - dr.s said he had a 50/50 chance and would be in the hospital for 6 to 8 weeks in the NICU. It was horrible. We called our church and a prayer chain was started, in less than 48 hours he was off the ventilator and out of the hospital in 9 days. Everyone was surprised! We knew he had Angels (and My oh MY have they been busy!!! Thank God he has them!)
Any way - we have decided no more babies. We've considered adoption for the girl he truly wants but we TALK about it. We share our feelings about this subject. Losing babies is not easy. But having more isn't always easy either. There are many questions that need to be answered:
Is the house big enough?
Do you have enough money to have another?
Do you have enough money to pay for daycare for an infant? (you stated you work outside the home and live for your family)
Do you have the patience to have another?
Do you think you'll be as anxious with a second baby?
Was it anxiety or post pardum depression?
If there are stresses in your life now, having another will DEFINITELY add to those stresses. Demanding him to tell you why he doesn't want another won't be condusive to a good discussion on the subject.
I would pray about it. I would also broach the subject with care - let him know you'd like to understand his stance on no more babies so that this doesn't become a bone of contention between you two. You don't want an "oops the BC didn't work" because the trust issue will come up and once that's gone, it's VERY hard to get it back.
If you are not into praying (God works in mysterious ways!) then I would suggest counseling in order to figure out why you two can't agree on this subject. If he's supportive as you say - you should be able to talk about this without making him defensive.
I will keep you in my prayers. If you need to download, I'm here.
Take care.