A.H.
I am so sorry for you... I know that these thing hurt deep and to the core.
See if you can stay with some friends or family until you can get on your feet.
Please, do not stay in a situation that is going to bring you so much pain and suffering! It is not good for you or the baby. Apparently he is not worth your time as he wasn't with you and the baby anyway for the Holiday.
You are stronger than you know. Pull deep down inside yourself and you WILL see it C.. That light of yours (we all have it, no matter what our faith is...) is there, burning. It will give you your Strength, Hope and Determination to get through this. You will Make it!
Shine on... YOU CAN DO IT. I give my love, light and faith to you...