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Updated on July 29, 2008
J.H. asks from Des Moines, IA
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Everything is just getting to much...i live in the US since 5 years and moved 4 times, now in Ankeny since June.As i am sitting here writting to u guys i am crying and i cant seem to stop!! I dont know where my head is..here are some of my problems:My best friend is in NE and i miss her so much.We spend every day together and she knows me better then anybody, we just did everything together. Here i dont know anybody and my neighbors are older so they have different interests..My biggest problem is my babygirl is starting kindergarden and i cant handle it!! I know that i am sooo silly 4 crying but it is really hard 4 me. I am a stay at home mom so i was with her 24/7.But it doesnt stop there..i dont know how 2 explain it but it seems that i am trying to avoid her ( i know it doesnt make sence!) This morning i just noticed what i am doing! I keep busy with cleaning my house and doing everything else just so i dont have to spend time with her. I know it sounds SOOOOOOO BAD and i am sorry that she didnt have a nice summer. I am alos afraid that i fall back into depression becuz of everything thats going on or am i allready depressed? IDK i just need some help and advice. I would really appreciate it if somebody can give me ideas on things to do and places to go with my child and yes i know it sounds silly but i am just at this point right now..I just pictured our summer different:doing all kinds of fun things, hanging out on the patio her laughing and just having a great time..I just cant seem to make that happen. And since we still have a house to sell in NE money is a big problem. Do u know where i can pick up patio furniture for cheap? Please any advice would help..thank you so much

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L.B.

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Excellent first step (asking for help!) Here is a website that tells you about fun things to do with kids in Des Moines and the subburbs http://www.desmoinesfamilies.com/ be sure to click on calendar... Do you get free counseling with the military? I would start there today but for the long run to help with your depression, I know 3 people that EFT has done what 10 years of couseling couldn't do... here is the link to that website http://www.emofree.com click on watch video. Have you joined a church yet? You will get lots of support there, when you find one that you like. It is sooooo good that you recognize what you want to change and are willing to accept help. You are moving in the right direction :) You can do it!!!

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A.R.

answers from Des Moines on

Hello.. and welcome to Iowa.. I am sorry that your experience here so far has not been well. I live in Mitchellville which is not far from Ankeny, and my husband was born in Germany. His mother married a soldier. I have 4 children...my step daughter 15, daughter 8, son 2, and son 10 mo. I understand what you mean by avoiding and also by feeling guilty. I catch myself doing it frequently. I also think though that it has been a lack of "me time" for me. I keep trying to get things done so that I can have me time, time with each of the children, and try to make sure I am keeping my husband happy, but in turn don't make the time for any of it. I feel my to do list will never be to done, and at the same time am not making it a focus for my children.
My advice for you and I...make them a part of what you are doing. If I am cooking let them help, weeding the same way. Then you feel like you are still spending time with them while not neglecting other duties. Another thing put in a scheduled time for just the 2 of you and remember that when school starts you will always be there with her because you have taught her all she knows. You will also be the first person she looks forward to seeing when school is out, and the last face she gets to see before she goes. Find some time to volunteer for her teacher. If you like scrapbooking you could go to the school once in a while and take pictures to make scrapbooks for the other kids in the class. A parent does that each year for my 8 year old and since I was working in another town and couldn't be here for it all it was great seeing what she had been doing.
Are you involved with a church? Maybe this could help.
Hope that some of this will help. May God bless you.

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L.M.

answers from Des Moines on

J., more than anything you sound so lonely! I have lived in IA for 3 years and feel the same way. I moved away from best friends and now my husband doesn't want to move back. I cry a lot too :( I am so sorry for your pain. I would have a couple of suggestions. Your summer is not over, take the time you still have left and go have some fun with that little girl! Take her to the mall, the park, the grocery store. Use the time you have left and don't eat up all your time regratting the past. Second is, I understand how your little girl can be like a friend, I have often felt that with my little one. She is like a friend to me. But as an adult, you need adult friends, children are not meant to take the place of adults. I have found a couple good friends in my neighborhood, down the street. Why don't you try putting out some flyers or an ad in the local paper, looking to start a mom social group. Bring your kids. Create some play dates. There are always lonely moms out there. We make our kids and everyone else a priority, but there has to be some time for us too. Think of what you need and then go look for it. I would also check with a dr. about an anti-depressant. I take an anti-stress one called Busiprone, and love it - there are some out there with lesser side effects. It takes the edge off my pain & helps me deal and focus without making me fuzzy.. Last, I would try to find a good church. A smaller one is usually better, try to get connected. Just plain tell the people you are around, I am lonely and I need help. You can't be afraid to ask for it. Make sure to use the ideas people send you. Ask God for help. He is there, really. He cares and can also use people around you to love you. Reply to me if you want to talk more.

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C.C.

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J.,
I am sorry you are going through all of that. I know what it is like to not have your best friend close, but mine actually passed away. She knew what I was going to say before I could say it. Friends like that don't come along very often. Take advantage of the fact that your friend is still alive and that you can still talk to her.

My little ones are only 9 months old, so I have a while before they get to school age. I know there are a lot of young families in Ankeny and in the local military. It willtake a little bit of time, but you will meet others. When your daughter goes to school, you can take advantage of the time while she is in school to get your house clean and errands run so that after school you can spend the rest of your time with her uninterrupted. You can also get involved in her school and help out some. I've got several friends who help out at their children's schools and love it.

Definitely try to get some professional help for the depression. That can take over and keep you from doing anything. It can also change you from the person your husband fell in love with. Take care of yourself. I'll be praying for you. If you need an idea of some churches in Ankeny, let me know. I know of a few and have friends in Ankeny that go to several different churches there.

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B.B.

answers from Des Moines on

First things first, you need to see someone about your depression. Once you get that under control, I think you'll see a lot of things differently.

Secondly, we moved to Ankeny 3yrs ago. I know how it feels to leave your best friend behind and move somewhere new w/no friends. It can be sucky. I still don't really have any friends here. I am very much an introvert, I teach in a different town, and my oldest is going to be in K-Prep there. Because I work there, it's hard for me to get involved too much in his class.

I think you should definitely make an effort to get involved in her classroom. That would be a very easy way to meet other parents!

Take care and good luck!

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S.C.

answers from Des Moines on

J., Definitely see a professional for the depression. Have you considered taking your daughter to the public library for story time and their other activities? They usually have a lot of free stuff going on that's a lot of fun and a good way to meet other moms. For the affordable patio furniture check out Craigslist and the local ReUseIt or Freecycle group.
HTH,
SarahC

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