? #1-FROM EVERTHING I've EVER READ/HEARD/ETC about young kids and sleeping, DO NOT SKIP THE NAP!!!!!! At the very least, they need the "down-time" (even if not sleeping) until AT LEAST age 4 but often up to age 6. They can't get in enough hours of sleep simply at night. They need it broken into segments. At least have her lay in her bed and "read", listen to music, or rest! It doesn't matter that she sleeps well at night, she still needs the "nap". Children need the extra break between play "sessions" for their brain to "recover" from all the stimuli! Check out sleep charts on line (showing age and hours needed) if you want more info on total hours needed for her age.
As for ? #2, THIS IS JUST MY PERSONAL OPINION, but EVERY MOTHER FEELS YOUR WAY AT SOME POINT UPON HAVING OR EXPECTING #2, but people do it every day, so it is do-able. I was just talking to my in-laws about this very thing and we all agreed about feeling this way but that it is just part of being a mother!
I was scared to death when I found out I was preg. w/ #2 (a Surprise) which was going to be so close in age to my #1. I, too, felt over-whelmed with #1 at the time (who was very demanding of our attention at the time) plus we had many other temporary not-so-newborn-friendly happenings/situations going on in our life (see "A little about me). Dealing with a newborn PLUS the existing toddler was a very scary thought, but the decission was already made for us and we always knew we wanted our child to have a sibling (or two). So having #2 wasn't bad, just much sooner that we had hoped for and planned for (we were aiming for 3 years, like you are and got them only 18 mos. appart instead) and a forced issue. BUT, it all turned out wonderfully! If we would have waited, our darling toddler may have become a demanding brat by that time, or God knows what else may have 'caused probs. She loved her bro. right from the start and loves "helping" me with him. I believe God knew better what he was doing than we did on that one!
In my personal opinion, it is better on everyone in the family to have the second child sooner that later (by time kids get 5 or so, they get used to being the only one and get more demanding where as at a younger age, they may be more needy but are more flexible on what they demand on you as the parent) and the kids are more like play-mates and companions than competitors for your attention.
You will be surprised how well you adjust after the second comes along. To me, the second baby really was easier than the first. The first few monthes are crazy, no lie, but by the beginning of the third mos. or so you get into a routine and things get normal. You will feel no more or no less "OVERWHELMED" with two than you feel right now with one.
Given your history of post-pardum, make sure you have a good support system (from family, friends, and your doc) before making your final decission and you will be fine. And when baby #2 comes, just remember a quote I came accross and now live by:
"When dealing with small children and you seemed overwhelmed, treat each situation like triage or an ER and get a hand on the most urgent situation first before worrying about the second, third, etc...............
BEST OF LUCK!
you can do it! You made it through one!!!!!
T.