Dear M....
First of all, take a deep breath and know that God is in charge here. Realize that pain, and bleeding are a sign that someting is wrong. When I was 37, I had the signs that I was pregnant, But, I started to bleed along with cramping at about 5 weeks. It was like the pain of labor. I was told to collect the clots, so that my Dr. could see how much blood I was loosing. He determined after an untrasound that I had what was called a "missed pregnancy", the gestational sac was there, but there was no pregnancy as strange as that sounds. He said, that I coulod let nature take its course, and continue to pass the clots, ot I cound have a DNC. I opted to get it over with and had the proceedure. I was heartbroken, and cried alot afterwards.
I got pregnant again, and a year later gave birth to a healthy baby boy, and 18 months later a baby girl.
In the times we live in, there are many things that cause things to happen to our bodies. They have to learn to adapt. But, God knows what is best for us, and He is in conrol of our lives, whether we accept Him or not. He loves us, and loves our children, and desires not to harm us. Sometimes our lifestyles superceed His plan for us, but He is faithful to continue to bless us.
What I am saing here, is don't give up hope, have faith, and trust that He will give you the desires of your heart. It might not be when you want it, because it his in His time that He answers prayer. Just be assured He does answer prayers.
I wish the best for you and your family, and hope that Gods love will minister you, and that He would give wisdom and discernment to your doctor regarding this pregnacy and the ones to come.
Love and Gods blessings,
C.