G.J.
He may very well be having a hard time adjusting to his new surroundings. The fact that you can hold him and calm him in your arms is a good sign, however exhausting you. I suggest you hold him sitting on the floor. Have some toys around try putting something out of his reach so he may be encouraged to leave the comfort of you and start to explore but stay close for reassurance. Play with them -help him interact. Ask him to get you – say the block and bring it back. Be happy for him. Children are curious. It may take a while. However, if you are finding that you feel like this already you may want to re think it. I worked with children for 22 years, I love kids and still find my brain come alive when I have a house full however over the years there were 3, I just couldn’t bond with. I had the luxury of moving them on to another carer but it takes a secure person to recognise this may not be a good match. If you have not lost all hope and think you can do this still- give him time and take time to bond and help him get comfortable in your home. You may not hold your child all the time -his parents probably don’t either. But if it was your daughter who was in care and needed to be secured with arms to calm down and the person you are paying to give her care and security didn’t do it- how would you feel? Taking care of kids and finding the joy is a calling- if you have that – you are blessed. It does not mean you you have to feel it with everyone. Just in closing, I found over the years that the ones who gave me a "run for my money" were the ones I learned the most from, the ones that made me better at my job and a better person. Once you get through this, you may find he taught you more than all the classes and books could ever do. He is a gift.