Hi S.,
I know that you must be very frustrated right now. Please remember that our children want to please us. When they are not, it is usually because something is not quite right from their perspective. For me, my youngest will begin to act out and not listen when I/we have gotten too busy and he feels disconnected from me. So maybe, your daughter's mother's day out time is making it harder for her to connect with you, I don't really know, but I thought it should be mentioned. For us, everything improves when I make the time to reconnect with him and slow down to listen to his needs.
Please try to look at the world from your daughter's eyes so that you might learn what is going on in from her perspective.
Could it be that she needs you to always go to her, and physicaly touch her, before giving an instruction so that she feels connected to your request? . . . This is only one possibility of many but it is up to you to decipher what your daughter is trying to tell you through her behavior.
Please remember, our children view themselves through our eyes. Here is an author and speaker whose approach might be helpful.
Alfie Kohn wrote a great book called, "Unconditional Parenting" He also has a DVD by the same name that is fabulous. (This is NOT permissive parenting)
Here is an excerpt from one of his web sites: Most parenting guides begin with the question "How can we get kids to do what they're told?" -- and then proceed to offer various techniques for controlling them. In this truly groundbreaking book, nationally respected educator Alfie Kohn begins instead by asking "What do kids need - and how can we meet those needs?" What follows from that question are ideas for working with children rather than doing things to them.
One basic need all children have, Kohn argues, is to be loved unconditionally, to know that they will be accepted even if they screw up or fall short. Yet conventional approaches to parenting such as punishments (including "time-outs"), rewards (including positive reinforcement), and other forms of control teach children that they are loved only when they please us or impress us. Kohn cites a body of powerful, and largely unknown, research detailing the damage caused by leading children to believe they must earn our approval. That's precisely the message children derive from common discipline techniques, even though it's not the message most parents intend to send.
More than just another book about discipline, though, Unconditional Parenting addresses the ways parents think about, feel about, and act with their children. It invites them to question their most basic assumptions about raising kids while offering a wealth of practical strategies for shifting from "doing to" to "working with" parenting - including how to replace praise with the unconditional support that children need to grow into healthy, caring, responsible people. This is an eye-opening, paradigm-shattering book that will reconnect readers to their own best instincts and inspire them to become better parents.
This approach is considered contoversial since it flies in the face of the standard advice but if you have a willingness to open your heart and read this book or watch his DVD with the thought that children are just trying to get their needs meet while pleasing us it may change your relationship with your child and your own childhood. It has for me.
My children are almost 12 and 16 years old and I can honestly say that this type of parenting is harder for the parents at times but ultimately wonderful in what it helps you create with your children.
Please be gentle with yourself and know that you are not alone. We all struggle at times but the effort you put in will pay off in time. Keep me posted on how things go.
Take care,
R.