R.C.
Dear G. D, You need a nursing coach to go through sticking yourself with you for a week or so until you can do it on your own. Are you able to get to where classes are being taught on a daily basis. If not, see if you can start a contact support group where a nurse coach can visit each day until you can solo. Also, you need a mental health coach to assist you with the many transitions you are experiencing. You are not a pregnancy counselor which means you might not be able to use the same counseling techniques on yourself right now. Counselors should not try to heal themselves GET help. Four other people in your family are counting on you not to overwork yourself. You need the benefit of having some assistance to stay focused on good health. Don't underestimate pregnancy, a lot is going on with your body that your intellect can't control just because you wish it so. Let your doctor know that you are not able to inject yourself yet. Let him know that you are struggling emotionally because of the GD is not under control. Let your doctor know that you need emotional support with your many transitions at this time. Don't stop there if your doctor doesn't recommend you to a counselor,FIND ONE WITH YOUR HUSBAND's help but find one without delay. Your entire family will benefit and your developing baby will have the best chance at good health, and you will minimize future complications with this pregnancy.God bless you. Congratulations! Enjoy motherhood. You have so much to offer parenting at this age. Hang in there. I know its like being a Mother of multiples. My younger 3 children were close like yours at age 38. My twin girls are 18 now. Get help now while you are still in charge. SMILE!