A sudden death brings a wave a emotion that just knocks our sense of balance completely off. I'm sorry for your loss and the emotions you feel are only the begining. About three years ago, I lost a very close friend unexpectedly, we were about 38. I had just seen him the day before, but had my children in my car and was en route to something pressing (so pressing I can't even recall what it was), so I didn't stop to talk. He died that night. The pain is horrible when you lose someone so close.
Pray for him and his family today. I will stop and say a prayer for you too. Although you cannot avoid your pain and loss, you can accept the compassion of those around you, extend sympathy and support to the family, and, above all, love those who are lucky enough to share your life.
Best wishes,
L.