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T. my heart really goes out to you. I have a friend in Chicago that went through some thing very simular. Her kids are in Jasmaca, it took her a very long tome to get to see her children, even just to visit them. However back to your situation. Believe me I know what your going through. Me and my husband are missionaries in a sense, we are not the type that travels out side of the country yet. We do local Ministry, like within the United States. We lived in Chicago and when we were called in to ministry we left our oldest children behind. As a mother it's really hard some days thinking about my babies, however as for you I couldn't began to indentify with your pain. I also know that having more children could never fill the void of the lost. But one thing that is for sure they certainly keep you pre-occupied enough. If your husband is not in agreement with you not tieing your tubes, it could cause some problems. Now if it's okay with him by all means have just one more, God will surely give you a son. But........ the husabnd must be in agreement.
P.s let me just say this, Lady what you need is a miracle. Listen, God still does them. The bible says if you had Faith
the size of a mustard seed you could move mountains Mark 11:24 In every hard situation in my life I called on the Lord Jesus and saw great miracles. If you can believe one day you will have your children with you in America. All God need is your Faith. Just say it right now. I believe. Just as fast as you say it God will start the balls to roll in you favor. Just say it I BELIEVE. it's done. say thank you Lord for bringing my babies to me one day. Don't try to figure out how it's going to happen because most miracles you can't explain no way. Take care honey.
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