Theresa, thanks for posting this question. I am interested to see how others will respond and hope I can get some good advice.
I have had weight issues ever since I got pregnant about 10 years ago. I gained 70 lbs with each pregnancy. I had always been thin, and my mother became thinner than ever after having babies, without ever working out- I think that for her, just chasing the kids around was enough, but for me, I can only lose weight if I am completely vigilant about what I eat and if I exercise daily. It is such a battle and I often have felt like I was not "good enough" as a person. My friends are mostly thin as well. I realize they each have their own issues, but it has been super hard for me to equate myself as "the fat one". Comments from some of these "friends" (and really, these comments make me feel like they really are NOT friends) have hammered my own self-view home; one gal has constantly said things like "I am SOOO glad I am thin and fit into these little dresses!" while we get ready, or "NO offense, but I totally notice when you get stressed, you eat". Another EX-friend told me that she never worried about her husband thinking I was cute because I was pregnant or dealing with baby weight, but now that I was losing weight it made her worry more.. um, ok. Thanks!
I digress... you can tell that obviously I have thought way too much about this for years. I love to cook and bake, have a sugar addiction, and I tend to yo-yo a lot. I am maybe 15 lbs overweight, so not a ton, but enough that it bothers me.
I am feeling a LOT better about myself these days. Yes, I want more energy and I would LIKE to be fit, but I am starting to see myself as just fine no matter how I look and no matter what my weight is. I chucked my scale last month. I was tired of the number getting me down and with thinking "I am doing bad" every day. I got some bigger pants and just that alone helped because they actually fit and look cute instead of me desperately squishing myself into too-small jeans and hoping that the shame will motivate me to eat better that day ;) Lastly, and most importantly, I am throwing myself into daily activities that make me feel good and recognize my self-worth. No, I did not work out yesterday: I painted watercolor paintings with my 3 year old, then made sugar cookies with her and then did mommy horsey rides all afternoon. I would NOT trade any of that quality time for 5 lbs. I have been making time to work on my artwork almost every day, something that I have not done in 8 years, and I have seen my skills and confidence grow tremendously in that area. I am starting to learn Latin. I have been spending time with new, QUALITY friends that lift me up and do not make catty comments about my appearance to boost their own self esteem.
Hoping to glean some more good advice from your post :)
And, one last comment: I LOVE Mamapedia, because you have NO IDEA what anyone looks like, (for the most part) and you can see their TRUE beauty. There are so many posters on here that I admire and it has absolutely nothing to do with how much they weigh or how they look. I hope that you will be able to see the good in yourself as well :)