S.B.
Dear C.,
I'm not a fire wife, but I know one. We are such close friends that we consider ourselves family. I actually met her husband first. As a single mom, he offered to help me move and when I called the number he gave me, his wife answered and was not too happy at first! But, then she calmed down and thought about it....it is so like her husband to do something like that. To offer to help anyone that he can. Gosh, that was 11 years ago.
I have forwarded her this site, but she is a teacher and very busy in her own right. She doesn't have time.
But, her husband has worked for CDF for 25 years. Their oldest child just started college. The youngest is my son's age.
I often wondered how in the world she could handle her husband being gone so much. Especially during fire season, there are weeks that she doesn't even know where her husband is and we all watch the news about the fires he is sent off to fight.
Thank God he always comes home.
As a teacher, she has summers off. So she keeps herself busy. She reorganizes the garage or paints the house or we go and spend the night with her or go fishing, swimming, or camping just us and the kids. We go to church. We cook together. I've had her kids at my house and done things with them just so she can have a nice long soak in the bathtub.
I'm not a preachy person, but her faith really gets her through. That and keeping busy. It becomes a lifestyle after a while. And, after all these years, he can't wait to get home to her and she can't wait to have him back.
She is very supportive and sometimes, after being on the fire line, he is tired and stressed and gets grumpy only because he can't be in two places at once and feels like he doesn't do enough at home. She never nags or makes him feel bad. She does everything to let him know that she is capable and things will be fine....home is right there waiting for him.
You've got your hands full with little ones and you are right. You need some support. And I hope you can find it.
It would seem that your husband has been a fire fighter for some time and that is probably a very big part of why you love him and are so proud of him. I'm sure he does his best to try to juggle everything and you need to do your best too. Another long term dear friend is married to a police officer. He goes on sting operations and surveillance. She's got kids younger than yours. He was a cop before they got married 8 years ago. They too have one of the strongest, happiest marriages I have ever seen.
It can be done. I promise.
Like I said, with a new baby on the way and in a new area, I really hope that you can find a support system.
Best of wishes!