Am I over Reacting? - Wichita Falls,TX

Updated on February 27, 2008
T.F. asks from Wichita Falls, TX
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About 5 years ago my husband had an affair. After I found out I left him, but when we were 1 week from divorce I realized I loved him and wanted to try and work though our problems and it seemed to work. But now, I feel like he is doing it again. He has been acting normal, and he has really gave me no reason to think that he is cheating. He works for a drilling company and is home a week and gone a week, he has done this for the last three years. Could it just be that our time apart is catching up with me and I am completly over reacting? I have voiced my concerns to him and he tells me that he loves and there is no one else he would rather be with. :-\ I am so very confused. Anyway, any advice would be a great help. Thank you in advance.

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Ok so my husband came home Thursday, he didn't get to stay home long, but we had a talk and I told him how I was feeling. He said that with how much he works he understands why I was feeling like that. But he was also kinda hurt because of this. I told him it was nothing that he has done it was just me. Anyway, he made me feel a lot better by what he said. Thank you all for your advice. Just so everyone knows we did not go to counceling (sp) and I don't see any reason to go now.

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L.G.

answers from San Antonio on

T., I commend you for trying to save your marriage. That took a great deal of courage.

It sounds to me like your fears are real, and hopefully your husband is sensitive enough to recognize that he needs to spend more time reassuring you that things are ok. I agree with much of the advice already given - that you need to do your best to trust him, seek counseling, talk to him when you're feeling insecure, ask him to spend time with you on the phone or the webcam in the evenings.

That said, sometimes we can be our own worst enemies. My hubby travels a lot, too and is out of town sometimes 5 nights a week at a time. His parents had a tough situation when he was in high school, and so I know he understands how infidelities of any sort can strain a marriage. I trust him implicitly and yet, when he's traveling with people whose standards are a bit lower than his, I get these icky feelings, too. I feel insecure when I can't reach him and sad when he doesn't call. Usually I find out he's been working on last minute presentation changes the customer wants, getting a late dinner, or working out at the fitness facility. I think these feelings we get are normal, and probably more centered around our disappointment. We're thinking of him so often, so why isn't he thinking of us (ie, calling us?) Mens' minds are wired differently - I honestly believe he sometimes doesn't think about it or is being honest when he tells me he was afraid to wake me if I'd already gone to bed. That doesn't make it any easier to squash the "what ifs" in my mind. When they won't go away, I gently explain them and tell him I just need some reassurance.

I'd also try to gain more understanding of what a typical day is like for him. Is he working from sunup to sundown in a very physical job? Is he just so exhausted at the end of the day that he doesn't feel like doing anything but sleeping? If this is the case, maybe you could try romancing him - send him a note or card for each day he's gone or send him flowers. Surely he could make time to call you after something like that - and if he doesn't, then perhaps you have more grounds to worry. I might even be inclined to pay a surprise visit. This could do wonders for your peace of mind, and might even pay great dividends in your marriage, too. Be careful that you aren't going for the wrong reasons - ie, to catch him cheating vs to surprise him by coming to spend time with him. Or, if you are both spiritually minded, you might ask him to set up a time each night to pray with each other and for each other. Regardless of whether he prays with you, praying for him can also be effective.

My hubby and I sometimes chat online using Skype, a free webcam to webcam chat program with voice. It doesn't cost a thing for us to talk so we aren't worried about long distance charges or running up our cell phone bills if we talk outside of night/weekend minutes.

Hope you're able to find some peace about your situation soon. I'll be praying for you!

Best,
L.

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J.D.

answers from Dallas on

T.,

You have to rebuild your self confidence. In saying that, I mean you need to believe in yourself and your relationship. You made the choice to hold on to your marriage. Then you have to trust in it. You have to let go and not drive your man into the ground. Relax and enjoy the time you have with him and the fact you are a SAHM. He apparently is working hard enough to give you that ability. So, don't take that for granted.

What I have learned in the past is if you stay on a man about your iinsecurities, he will eventually just do what you are accusing him of. It's frustrating to not be trusted. So just let it go!

My best advice is to get involved with your kids and find outlets outside of the home. I think you may have cave syndrome. You have focused all your efforts on your kids and this marriage and you aren't growing yourself. Get out of the house, find a hobby, find a mom's group... etc. The bonus for this is you gain friends, topics of conversation with your spouse, you become more interesting to him, and if something does happen... heaven forbid... you have other things and people to keep you going.

Good luck dear! You can do this! :)

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G.M.

answers from San Antonio on

I would make sure to keep in contact with him as much as possible. And not just you, have the kids call him and email him. Make yourself and your kids a HUGE part of his life even when he is not home. Make him miss you guys and long to be home with you.

There are usually some pretty obvious signs of cheating i.e. unfamiliar number on cell phone, irregular spending, strange receipts etc. My friend figured out her husband was cheating because he started spending $10 at Starbuck everyday and wondered why he quit drinking his coffee at home. Then she checked in his car and he had reciepts in there for meals for two all of the time. She confronted him and of course he denied having a sexual affair. He said they were just friends. ...So that being said, don't blind yourself, be diligent and deal with your problem if you have one. If you don't, then make yourself and your kids the center of his life! Good luck.
G.

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N.

answers from Dallas on

I always try to trust my instincts. That's not to say that I'm not wrong on occasion, but I'd say 80% of the time, if I'm "feeling" like something's up, then something's up.

That said, you may just be feeling stress, a lack of self-confidence for some reason, may be having a bout of depression, or any number of things that may be clouding your view of things right now. I think it takes a long time after we've been betrayed by someone like that to really trust them again. And I know that sometimes we feel, even irrationally at times, that we couldn't bear to let it happen again, but if there really is NO reason to feel this way that you can substantiate, you might first look at what's going on with you that may be making you feel this way.

If you and your husband have a healthy dialog about the situation, you can always ask him to call you several times a night while he is out of town until you begin to feel good about it again. A man who has cheated in the past but wants to keep his relationship with his wife should know he has to go above and beyond when it comes to proving he's not and never will be doing it again. You could have him get a web cam so you can actually see him when you talk to him when he is out on the road. Maybe that would give you some reassurance. Maybe try to think of ways you can reassure yourself, and he can reassure you, that nothing is going on.

If you still find you cannot shake this feeling, it's probably one of two things. You are right and he is cheating again, or your trust has been so betrayed by him in the past that you can't get past it and you will have to decide if you can continue to be married to him when you just can't trust him anymore.

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M.Y.

answers from Dallas on

You didn't mention if you and your husband went through any kind of counselling when you got back together. That was a traumatic event for you and it would be very helpful for you to work through that with a counsellor whether he is acting out again or not. You also spend a lot of time apart. Make sure you work on your marriage together when he is home. Spend time along with him. Work on the romance in your relationship. I wish you the best!

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T.S.

answers from Houston on

ok, I will be the bad guy and say what every one else is afraid to say. Trust your instincts. God gave us intuition for a reason. There is something causing you to be worried and it is not just "trust issues". If it was just you being "overly sensitive" you would have never mentioned it to your husband or to this message board. Trust yourself. I am not saying that he is cheating but if you have been fine for the last 5 years and now you are feeling this way there is a reason.....Good luck and God Bless.

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A.H.

answers from Dallas on

It is really hard to overcome trust issues. You have to make up your mind, to either trust him and move on or quit because you will either make yourself crazy worrying about it or drive him away accusing him of it.

You have to ask yourself why you think he is messing around. Gut feelings are sometimes right but they are sometimes wrong. That is a lot to throw away on 50/50 chances.

You need to seek counseling to help yourself get over this. Even some together would be great. You are just going to let this eat you up and possibly ruin your marriage when he isn't doing anything wrong. Surely, he learned from his mistake and surely he wouldn't jeapordize losing you again. If he wanted out, he had it! A week from a way out of his marriage and he chose to be with you, so that says a lot!! If he was wanting to date, he could have. You need to remind yourself of this.

Hope youfind some peace with it. Good luck!

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S.H.

answers from Wichita Falls on

It is normal to not trust when someone has cheated on you. My advice is you either need to completly let go of the fact that he has cheated and move on with your marriage as if it never happened, or.. if that is too hard, youre relationship most likely wont last and the longer you stay in it, the harder you are making it for your children. Without trust your relationship is doomed to fail... why make it harder on your kids. Your 5 year old and 7 month old will adjust just fine (i know, ive been through a devorce when my son was 3.. and have read many books on this topic). Your older child will need some counseling. You just need to make the decission and stick to it.. and not let him sweet talk your way out of it if you choose devorce. Dont let your children feel all of the stress..

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T.O.

answers from Dallas on

T.,
Doubt will hurt the relationship, yet it is understandable because you're human. Pray for strength and peace of mind.

I hope you went to counselling, if not go now. Even if it's just you. But both of you should go.

An affair doesn't have to mean the end of a marriage and it did not for you. So let the past be the past and build on your strengths.

If you didn't go to counselling before you both need to go and get there fast.

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E.D.

answers from Dallas on

I can totally understand. Really... I won't go into details but I do.
Trust is a HARD thing to rebuild, but if I were you, I'd bring GOD into my family. There are a lot of books on www.family.org and other Christian book sites. There are therapists that are Christian.
Having said that... the bottom line is this, both parties have a responsibility in the marraige. If you are spending your time doubting, you are wasting it. AND if you keep putting ideas in his head he will. Figure out what your part in the situation is, and fix you. If you PRAY PRAY PRAY, and fix you and be the best mom, wife, lady you can be AND get your confidence up, etc... then you will know you did everything YOU can do.
Having a spouse that works away is HARD. But if this is all he can do to provide for you all, then give him a break.
Even when not in Iraq, my husband travels. Is it hard for me to trust him... sometimes, YES... but it honestly is just ME. And if I keep asking him to prove himself what will he think?
GOOD LUCK!
Hugs,
em

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