Becoming Mommy
When did it happen?
When did going out on a Saturday night turn into a pajama party with a toddler, a bucket of popcorn and Tangled for the 50th time? When did I forgo visiting my favorite boutique clothing store to shop in Gap Kids instead?
When did it happen for you?
When did you start becoming mommy? When you held your baby? When you felt him kick?
Sometimes I look at old pictures of my life BC (before child) and miss those memories and those experiences. The traveling and the late nights out and the carefree spontaneity. But most of the time, I smile at the experiences I had and wonder when the switch was flipped from independent, carefree and confident woman to a mom with no time, no rest and no answers but filled with more love than I thought possible.
Becoming Mommy started as soon as I spotted the 2 pink lines on the First Response back in September of 2011.
I was away for the weekend and remember that on Friday, I was still just me. I was looking forward to a weekend of cocktail mixing, unhealthy eating and relaxing. My husband and I had been trying to get pregnant for a few months and the control freak in me had been taking ovulation tests like a mad woman to make sure I didn’t miss my optimal window. That Saturday was a great day and everything I had wanted for my weekend away. When the sun went down, I began to get ready for the evening’s festivities. I went into the bathroom to freshen up and saw the ovulation tests in my toiletry bag. So before I did anything else, I took one. In the back of my mind I knew it would show I wasn’t ovulating, but I had grown so accustomed to taking them over a large window of time as not to miss anything in case my cycle was all over the place. As I waited for the results, I washed my face. I patted my face dry and glanced down at the test. It said I was ovulating. How was that possible? Did I calculate it wrong? Wow, my cycle was really messed up! I left the bathroom and told my girlfriend about the test. We both chalked it up to a faulty test and I continued getting ready. She walked into the room a few minutes later and said to me, “Maybe you’re pregnant.” She had looked it up and found articles about how a positive ovulation test could sometimes mean you’re pregnant. Now there is so much out there on the internet about pregnancy tests and whatnot that it’s hard to really believe anything as everyone is different.
Needless to say, we drove to CVS to get a test.
Half an hour later, there I was standing at the bathroom sink staring down at the positive First Response.
Flip switched. I was Becoming Mommy.
Photo: Kristen Samson Jackson
When did it happen for you?
Some of my friends didn’t flip until the first ultrasound or the first kick. Still others didn’t flip the switch until they held baby for the first time or when adoption papers were signed.
Whenever you started Becoming Mommy, we’re all here.
We’re wiping tears from rosy cheeks, kissing away the boo boos and scaring away the monsters under the bed. We’re tickling machines, Prince Charmings and taxi drivers. We’re tired and busy and sometimes under appreciated. However and whenever we experienced it, we became mommy. So throw on those pajamas, get excited to see Tangled for the 51st time and enjoy your new wild and crazy Saturday night.
Kristen is the mommy behind the groove at Mommy’s New Groove, a blog about mom life. When she’s not writing, she can be found singing Disney songs with her 3 year old daughter, experimenting in the kitchen or teaching Zumba Fitness® classes. A (somewhat) reformed control freak and master multi-tasker, Kristen is learning that this crazy mom life is constantly evolving and all you can do is find your ever-changing new groove. You can follow Kristen on Facebook, Twitter, Pinterest and Instagram.
