I am sorry to hear what you are going through. Have you tried doing a gluten free diet? I have read of a lot for people have been misdiagnosed with migraines, IBS, fibromyalgia,depression, and more, when really their bodies were reacting to the gluten in their diet.
My son is one of them. He was diagnosed with IBS and migraines at the age of 5 and 7, respectively. And he was always very weepy. I respect my doctors and respect medicine, but I knew the doctors were missing the mark. Something was not adding up with my son. And none of us could figure it out. That's when I decided I needed to take things into my own hands. I decided to start eliminating foods from his diet to see if anything happened.
Gluten was the first food I eliminted because of all the damage and misdiagnoses I have been reading about. Two days after I removed it from his diet, he was feeling better! I was able to remove all the medications from his life (which he had been taking for 4 years!) and manage his symptoms through his diet. As long as gluten is out of his life, he is 95% better! Stomach problems gone. Migraines gone. Weepiness primarily gone.
As a side note, I nurse my baby girl and have to be off dairy and gluten for her, and I lost a ton of weight! The lifesyle change is an adjustment, but worth it when you see the results.
As for the weight loss...take baby steps. Literaly. Start by walking a short distance...maybe just your driveway. (Only you know what you can handle, so start there.) Do that for a few days. Then add a little distance on to that, maybe to your neighbors mailbox. Do that for a few more days. And continue that way, mailbox by mailbox. Before you know it, you'll be a few houses away from your own!
Doing it this way, will allow you to build strength and allow your body to grow accostumed to walking everyday. Exercise is great for depression, great for the soul. If you have a bad day and can't walk, that's okay. Just pick up again the next day! Don't view this as needing to lose weight NOW. Just make it a lifestyle change and it will happen over the long haul. Just remember to eat healthy always! That will help tremendously!
My brother is running a half marathon with his girl friend on Columbus Day Weekend. When I spoke to him I asked in awe, "How can you do that?!" He said he start by walking! Eventually, he increased it to running for 1 minute and walking for 3 minutes. Then running for 1 and walking for 2 minutes. He took baby steps. And now he is about to run a 13 mile marathon!!!!
You can do this V.! Baby steps! Be proud of yourself. Be proud of your baby steps and always look forward.
So do me a little favor...will you get up right now and take a short walk? Even if it is just in your house. Go take your first step.
Have fun on your journey!!! I will be thinking of you! I hope this helps. Good luck!
Stop reading... GO WALK! :)
J.