This isn't really a vent it is more a post just to get it off of my mind and see if you ladies can help a little. I know I am going to sound selfish and stupid.
We had every intension of ttc either this month or next. Well because of job status and everything else that just falls down on our world we decided to wait until January. I know be greatful we can even try with the great possibility of concieving. I am. But there is this hole in our house. I look around and I have stuff I have my 4 year old but something is just NOT THERE (you know the feeling). I am progressivly getting more upset about this issue and my Psych said it is normal and she wished that things could have worked out. She is helping me through this but I just can't get a grip of wanting to throw our condoms out the window or getting pissy when I grab one. We could just not have sex but that is not us! I am sitting at work and just needed to vent the thought so I could move on with my day.
ETA- I took out the part about not caring if people read the post. Just a bad moment. It sounded bitchy to me so I removed it. Just to let you know!
Hope your ladies day is going good!
Plan a 'babymoon' - even if if it is just a weekend away. Save up some money, plan something obscenely decadent to look forward to in January. Maybe then you will have a Halloween baby :) Good luck.
Yeah, sounds frustrating. Honestly... I applaud you for being mature enough to know what the right time to have a baby is... and when it's NOT the right time. So many people selfishly choose to conceive children that they cannot afford to take care of. When the time is right, it will happen, and you will cherish that child so much more. I'm just sorry you're frustrated now!!
You're normal. You want a baby but life is getting in the way. There are so many pressures - finances, whatever else is weighing on you. You have a vision of your family with more than one child, but you can't get there right now. So of course you are frustrated. You feel like it's not under your control, and so you want to take some control by throwing the condoms out the window. It's good that you are getting support from a therapist - keep talking about it, get mad, get sad...and you will get through it. Good luck and hang in there.
