M.M.
B.~
First off, wow. I completely know how you feel. My kids are 13 mos apart. My daughter was literally 3 months old when I got pregnant with my son. I didn't know what to do either. I cried for 2 days and eventually called my mom. I was scared to death and my hands were shaking when dialing her number.
But you know what?? She wasn't that mad. She did the whole sigh thing and said "oh, M.....what were you thinking??" I cried and she said "you know what? you'll figure it out and we'll love that child as much as we love your first one" birth control pills aren't really an option for me either.
3 kids under the age of 5 is not going to be a simple task, but look at it this way: You were meant to have this kid and bring him/her into the world. You will magically find a way to support it, feed it, clothe it, etc. I don't know how that works, but it does.
You can do it. Be strong (as strong as you can b/c it's hard to be strong when you feel like you are disappointing everyone-including yourself b/c you are pregnant again), and call your mom. Cry. Explain how scared/frusterated/concerned/happy/nauseous/etc you are to her before she gets a chance to say anything. You may just be surprised by her response.
And after the baby.....get that husband of yours fixed!! :-)
message me on here if you just need an ear to listen to you.
Good luck to you!
M.