I am very sorry for your loss. I am not in your same situation- not even close. BUT I am married to an active duty service member, who has spent the last two years overseas. He is home now, and we just recently moved here from OH. For the time being he is here, but that will change soon. He is constantly gone and works long hours- this is the life I married into, and it leaves me pretty much in the single mom capacity. While I cannot possible know what you have been through- I know what it is like to be alone, I now the worry and the fear of possibly losing my husband when he "travels", I know what it is like to be left raising the kids, I have three. I also have spent a lot of time with other wives and helping deal with their losses, and being a friend. If you would like to talk, or email, or whatever I can do- please let me know. I am in need of some new friends here in a new place.