C.H.
I can kind of understand what you are going through my husband is in the miltary where he is gone away from me sometimes for months at a time or weeks. When he has been gone i put the phone on speaker and let him talk to the kids but it is so hard. i know this, b/c i have 5 little ones and they are a full days work. My twins were preemies. they came home when they were only 5 pounds. I had no family or really friends where i lived b/c i didn't really know anyone yet and my husband was some help at the time but when you need a break from getting up in the middle of the night for weeks at a time. it sucks big time.
I don't know if you had to bring home a monitor or anything but i did and that sucks. it would go off on both of them so much and it scared me to death that i sometimes didn't go to bed at night and i pretty much didn't sleep for the first two months they were home. unless the hubby was home and gave me some sleep but still i didn't really get good sleep that was very hard.
i understand somewhat where you are coming from. I hope you have family where you live b/c i would of loved that. to just get a break. looking back i can't believe i made it through it all. but i did and i am still making it everyday. they are now almost 3 but man it still is hard being a mom. take care if anything to let off some stem emial me at ____@____.com or go to myspace.com/ckhump20 and this is who i am take care