Congrats on your little one. It is an exciting, and sometimes scary life change. :) It sounds like you need some support from other moms in the same place you are. When my son was born I started attending the Mothers Support Group put on by Sutter. It is free, you don't have to be a Sutter patient, it is just a community outreach for new moms. The group sits in a circle and each mom has the chance to talk about what is going on at home, in life, etc. Other moms respond, ask and answer quetions, cry, complain, laugh... meanwhile moms are breastfeeding, bottlefeeding... babies are crying... no one cares. It was a lifesaver for me. They meet every Tuesday from 9:30 - 11:30 @ 3100 Douglas Blvd. Suite #205. You can drop in anytime. Don't worry about getting there right at 9:30. Sometimes people show up for the last 1/2 hour due to baby naps, etc. Good luck and have fun.