Hey Girlfriend!
I hope you don't mind me responding - I know this site is good because of anonymity but as I remember it, you were the one that sent me the link to this site so it's your fault I'm responding!! LOL
I guess I have a bit of an advantage over the other responders since I know you and B and what a fun and friendly couple you are and how you have worked so hard to be blessed with your little M&M's. So, I want to respond as your friend who knows you and as one who has been there.
Toby and I will be celebrating our 18th wedding anniversary on 2/15 - can't believe time has flown so quickly. We have had some major ups and downs over the years and came even close six years ago to ending our marriage (not me that wanted it, it was him). Anyway, way too long of a story to lay out all the details here but the bottom line is we had grown apart. We weren't really communicating like a close couple should, we had J at the time and had become so focused on being parents that we forgot what it was like to be a couple who cared about the other's needs. I felt like work was more important than me and he felt like I was never happy with anything he tried to do. It broke my heart when he told me one time, "Everything I do is to make you happy but it never seems like it's enough." Nearly losing him taught me that I was living a pretty selfish life, I wanted him to do everything I wanted and needed but I completely missed the boat on meeting his needs (physical and emotional). Since then, I've learned a lot through reading and bible studies that I really didn't know about men/women. Things like how our needs are met differently and how very very very important it is to live selflessly even when you feel like your partner isn't. I also learned that it is very important to lighten up! So what if he doesn't do things exactly like me (especially where the kids are involved!). The bottom line is that our husbands need to know that we respect them and appreciate what they are doing to provide for us and the kids. If your husband knows that you truly feel those things for him, he will bend over backwards to be an amazing husband. And I know your guy....he's a rare one so don't be too hard on him :-)
Finally, learn to be content with what God has given you. Don't get caught up in what the world implies you should have or what your friends or other playgroup moms have. Yes, there are many many many who have much nicer homes and cars and clothes and bodies than you and I but what we do have are husbands that will cut off a limb to make us happy and "children that are alive and well!!!". That my friend, is what makes the best life of all!!!!! We both know that very well.
Before I head out, I want to say that I understand how hard the travel is. Toby has been gone to California all week and it's been tough but it is what he needs to do to provide for his family. Yes, I get a little jealous when I think about how much alone time he's getting or the nice meals he's having but I remind myself that just like Esther in the Bible, God has placed me where I am "for such a time as this". My job is to be the mommy that's at home and consistent, there's no big pay out but one day when I'm old and gray, I know I'll look back on these years with fondness and a sense of sadness that they went by way to fast. Hang in there girl, love that great guy and those sweet girls and be strong and valiant, this is where you are supposed to be right now!
Hope I've encouraged you a little dear friend!
Hugs and Blessings!
G