L.B.
Do you have health insurance? You have to tell somebody about it, you will not get better unless you have support from your family or friends. I have a niece that has recovered from the same eating disorder that you describe, it is called bulimia. The Institute for Living in Hartford has a very good program. You can call them and talk to someone in the eating disorder clinic. They will refer you to a program. If you cannot afford their program they should beable to refer you to another. There are many out patient programs as well as inpatient programs. You can also dial 211 it is the CT resource line, it is anonymous, anyone can call and ask for referrals or information such as what you are asking and they will refer you to the appropriate resource. You cannot do this alone, this is a very serious disorder that can be life threatening. I know you want to get better and that is the first step but, you need professional help to stop this. Do not feel ashamed, you are asking for help that takes a strong person. Stay strong and please make the call to the above places. I will be thinking about you, e-mail me and let me know how you are doing and if you were able to find help.
L.