Needing Help - Jefferson City,MO

Updated on July 14, 2009
M.S. asks from Jefferson City, MO
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Hi mom's, I know this is a comon problem among many but I am having trouble with this. I just had my 5th miscarriage in a 9 year span. I have 1 healthy, happy little girl who is 2 1/2. She is the light of my life and I am more grateful than anyone can know to have her. My problem is that I was 13 weeks along and thought I was out of harms way for this. I had started to buy things and was getting excited. They think it was caused from my gestational diebites that cuased the baby not to grow right. I am having a hard time getting over this one. I have never been this far and lost one. I usually lose them around 6 to 7 weeks. I am going to see a specialist on Tuesday and see what he says about trying again. I just don't know that I want too. I know it is all fresh and all of that but am I wrong for not wanting to go through all this heartbreak again?

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I went to see the specilist and he gave me hope. They are running a bunch of tests on me to see what the problem is and as soon as we get that information back I would say I will be on insulin perminately. They did find a problem with my thyroid so I start medicine for that tomorrow morning. Thanks for all the good advise. Even if none of this works I am so thankful for having my beautiful daughter!!

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K.L.

answers from St. Louis on

Having lost 3 of my 4 pregnancies, I completely understand your hesitation as well as your desire to try for more. However, my last 2 were tubal pregnancies and my tubes had to be surgically removed, so I was never faced with the option of trying again after that. I cannot say what I would do in your circumstance, but I can tell you two things that might have helped me to make such a decision. One is spiritual and the other practical.

First, I've learned to trust every decision to prayer. It took me a while to learn how to observe the guidance prayer and meditation afforded me. I like a phrase my friend uses. She says that prayer works much better if you pray until your finished. I learned to pour my heart out in prayer and then put myself and everything I know into a state of acceptance for whatever guidance, support, comfort, protection, affection, or challenge may come. Once I understood that God's story is always a love story and trusted that completely, it became easy to sense the guidance that was given.

The practical information I can offer is in regard to gestational diabetes. There is a book by Dr. Peter D'Adamo, Live Right 4 Your Type, that may help you to overcome your vulnerability to that condition. Learning to eat the foods you are able to metabolize for the most benefit to your body and to avoid the foods that create metabolic challenges for you can work like magic. They have proven that this diet actually resolves diabetic tendencies. The book also explains the type of exercise that is best for your blood type. So, if you knew that you could adapt your diet and exercise to be less vulnerable to gestation diabetes, you might have a much better chance for a successful pregnancy.

Either way, my heart is with you. My son is now 23 and we continue to be deeply grateful for the gift he is to our lives. But,I also know that, although we have only one child to share this life with us, we have 4 that we will know forever. I also know that I have shed more tears over the child we raised than over the children we lost. It may seem odd, but there is some amount of comfort in knowing that those children are safe. No one will ever crush their enthusiasm, try to abduct them, or betray their trust.

There is no right or wrong to these decisions. Love has never steered me wrong. But, sometimes Love says, "Take the risk." And, sometimes Love says, "You've done enough. Celebrate it." Perhaps Love is saying, "Just wait, for now." No one else can hear what Love is whispering into your heart. What often happens is that our heart, in these circumstances, is still screaming and full of agony. It always took me a couple of months for my heart to stop throbbing in grief and wanting to scream a scream that would echo through the heavens and rattle the stars. It can be difficult to hear what Love whispers in your heart while your heart is screaming. So, it might be helpful to let yourself have a few months of indecision about the future and let yourself move through this time of extraordinary pain before making a decision. Or, make the decision you need to make for now and know that you can revisit the question in a few months. Give yourself and your family what you need for now. It is enough, for now.

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D.S.

answers from St. Louis on

Go see the specialist and honestly, it is ultimately your decision along w/ your partners (more yours, i think) to try again. You may get a lot of answers from this new doctor, I would wait and see what he/she has to say and go from there. I am so sorry about the miscarriages, coming from someone else who has had many, along w/ d&c's..i am heading to a new doctor to see what my "problem" is b/c i too am not sure if i can go through another d&c and loss. it is hard, but keep concentrating on your daughter.
i hope this helps a bit.
D.

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R.D.

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Hi...I recently had my first child and when I was in my second trimester I found that I have a mutation that causes women to miscarry. I was fine with my first child, but I have read that when you try for more, it can cause you to miscarry. You can find a lot of information by typing in MTHFR mutation on Google. I am adopted and just recently had contact with my biological mother and when she found out I was pregnant she told me to get tested right away. The tests are expensive and unfortunately our insurance did not cover them. (They say it is experimental testing) It has a lot to do with your homocystine levels. Mine were fine, so I just had to take a baby asprin and b12 and b6 supplements every day. If you want to know any more send me a message. I hope this helps!

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V.S.

answers from Kansas City on

So sorry for your experience with this pain. It may be common these days, but it was not in the past, and there are very specific reasons. If you really want help, e-mail me and I will explain some basics to you. I would love to help but don't have time to go into detail now. You CAN be healthy and move past this time happily.

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L.S.

answers from Wichita on

Wow, I'm so sorry what you've been through. I've been one of those that haven't had to worry about such things. My first thought was to tell you not put yourself through that again. I understand the need of wanting to have a child. Just a thought, have you thought about adoption? It's possible to go with the woman to her appts. and help her through it and be there for her and the baby. I don't know how you feel about that, but it could be a way to help another human and to start the healing process of all the hurt and disappointment.

Good luck to you, ls

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E.S.

answers from Kansas City on

I've never been there but I would go see the new doctor or even several specialists since it can be caused by more than one factor. If your determined to have another one then keep trying but if your happy with an only child then stick with that. After all it really is up to you if you can handle dealing with any more loss.

you can also look at things this way at least you didn't get all the way through the pregnancy just to loose the baby when it was born or several months after. there are always worse scenarios that could have happened and just be grateful that they didn't may help ease the sense of loss. I always try to remind myself when something goes wrong or turns out the opposite of what I wanted that things happen for a reason and they could be worse.

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K.B.

answers from Wichita on

Good Morning M., I am so very sorry for your heartache and loss of a precious child. You have been though so much that it is very understandable why you are feeling the way to are right now.
Maybe in time and after seeing the specialist, getting alot of rest and healing you will be able to make a decision more clearly. It is never wrong to want to protect your heart and mental health from harm.

It is never wrong to be happy with the blessing God has given you and be happy forever.
Your in my prayers M., May His strength give you strength, His healing power cover you, His Peace fill your heart.

God Bless you dear heart
K. Nana of 5

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J.H.

answers from St. Louis on

I think having children is a very personal decision, whether it is in the very beginning of pregnancy, during pregnancy deciding on tests, or at birth utilizing birth plans and options... its all very personal and very much up to the individual to decide what is best for them. So, if you feel that you do not want to try for more children then you shouldn;t feel like you are making a bad decision or the wrong decision, and vise versa if you want to try again b/c its all up to you and what you feel is going to work best and be best for you.

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S.R.

answers from Kansas City on

We also had trouble haveing my daughter, I got gestational diabetes with her and had to take insulin shots. We tried again and could not have another one. My advice is to be just thankful that god gave you one. Which I know you are. I don't know that I could not go through what you have and want to keep trying I am sorry for your loss. The specialist may be able to help you. If you are not, you may want to get your diabetes under control, that does have alot to do with carrying a baby. Watching your carbs and so forth. It also have to do with getting pregnant.

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H.H.

answers from Kansas City on

I lost one at 15 weeks and it took about a year to get over the loss. I am sorry that you have been through this so many times. That has to be heartbreaking. Give yourself some time and you may want to try again. We had 2 healthy children when we lost the 3rd one. My husband made comments that he was fine with 2 and wasn't excited to try for another one after the miscarriage. I wanted another one so bad after the miscarriage, I think it helped me not to think about the loss so much. It did take a while for me to get pregnant again but we did have another baby and he is so glad we kept trying and can't imagine life without him. He is so much like my husband and they are best buddies.

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S.B.

answers from Kansas City on

I am sorry M. for your loss. I know I probably shouldn't comment here since I have never been pregnant, but have you considered expanding your family through adoption? I am an adoptive Mother, and it has been a wonderful experience. We adopted an newborn and she is a little over 2 now. I have NEVER felt as if she wasn't my own. I know each of us is different in our feelings about how a family is formed, but if you can see it in your heart, adoption is an alternative. Feel free to contact me personally if you'd like to discuss this further.

S.B.

answers from Topeka on

You are NOT wrong for not wanting to be hurt again. You have gone through so much pain. Maybe you can tell yourself if the specialist doesn't work out and you miscarry again that this will be the last time. OR you can just focus on the blessings that you do have, get your tubes tied, and live a happy life. It is not your fault that you are losing your babies. So please don't ever think so.

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