Have you considered calling the United Way's hotline? The number for the Bexar County hotline is just 211. I don't know what all the options are, but the United Way is in contact with all different kinds of local and national organizations, and they make sure that people are put in contact with the groups that can help them--most importantly, so that you can get the help you need to not have to worry about losing your kids! That must be the worst of all, being terrified about your family, and you really don't need or deserve to worry all the time. If you're reluctant to ask for help, which I don't know if you are, then do it for your girls!