Dear L.:
You may not get to choose your size. I wanted full and perky, not big.
Before children, I was a 30D to 30DD. This is close to a 34B - just on a smaller frame. I breastfed two children and my husband talked to me about getting surgery every day for about a year.
I had not gone down to my regular weight and shape and hadn't even purchased a bra other than a nursing bra since before my pregnancy, so I'm not even sure what size I was when I went in for surgery. I was still even leaking milk! My husband set up an appointment. I told the doctor that I didn't really feel ready, but I did kind of miss my old breasts. He had a last minute opening for the next day and so I ended up having surgery.
The doctor told me that I "had too much skin" for the small implant that I wanted even though I passed the "pencil test" before surgery. He also told me that most people regret being too conservative and not getting large enough implants. He was a bit worried about the size that we agreed to use, but promised me that he would not go larger.
During surgery, he decided that he needed to go larger. I was very upset. I ended up being 34D to 34DD. By the way, after surgery,with the extra weight of the implants, I failed the "pencil test". I gained 8 lbs. in just the first 5 days after surgery - and about 20 in the next year. I felt very self-conscious in fitted clothing and purchased heavier fabrics to conceal my shape. Somehow, I felt less conspicuous with extra weight. It was hard for me to leave home even though my reluctance embarrased me. After all, some people naturally have larger breasts - and some people have REAL problems like burns or missing limbs - I don't expect them to hide out at home - there was no excuse for me to do so.
Healing from surgery was difficult. I had a lot of swelling. We hired someone to come in to take care of me and two active preschoolers for the first day. Then we left for a 500 mile trip to visit family. They didn't want to leave me alone - they could help watch the children while I just rested and recovered. Anyhow, my toddler walked out to the lake towards the pier while everyone stood around. I screamed for someone to get him, and ended up running down the embankment and scooping him up. Perhaps that did not help my recovery. My doctor said that I could resume normal activity in 4-5 days. He may not have known how strenuous normal activity is for the mother of preschoolers. I did half of what I normally do and COULD NOT get out of bed the next day until I took some pain reliever. I say take it easy and add to your routine gradually for 3-6 weeks.
Now, 11 years after surgery, I am finally getting used to my implants. I may even be enjoying them. I began to exercise last year. I am wearing more form-fitting clothing. People tell me that I have a beautiful figure and am well-proportioned. My husband told someone that I had implants and he said that he couldn't believe it, so I guess they don't look unnatural. I am now going on a diet to lose some of the 30+ lbs I put on after the implants. I am hoping that I can lose weight and get in better shape without becoming self-conscious.
My husband thinks that the implants are the best things I have ever done. He had trouble seeing me as a sexual being instead of just a mom after the children were born. For him, there is something about a breast that is just his and hasn't been "shared" by a nursing baby. Now he thinks that I am the hottest women ever.
I would recommend talking to more than one doctor and getting opinions on breast implants for YOUR body. Discuss the pros and cons of under-the-muscle, over the muscle, bellybutton surgery, underarm surgery, and even the possibility of a lift so you can use smaller implants if you have excess skin like I did.
Good Luck!
Jen