Hi S.,
My name is LaKeisha and I have a 2yr. old that has been diagnosis with celebral palsy, developmental delays and etc. He was premature born at 30wks. weighing 2lbs. 4oz., staying in the hospital 44 days, this was a nightmare for me because he was my baby boy that I have longed for and seeing him helpless made me miserable, but I was there for him. He had 2 blood transfusions, eye surgery, hip surgery because he's muscles were not fully developed so they put extentions in his legs so he can grow normally, I live in northern Louisiana and have to travel to New Orleans, Louisiana on a regular basis, plus
I work and have 3 girls, I never put my son in daycare, he always went to work with me. I have therapy at home once a week and therapy at a therapy center once a week also, everyone tells me I need to let him go to school or daycare but I can't seem to let him go, I feel it's my responsibility to take care of him, I haven't even let my mother-n-law keep him, I feel noone can handle him like I can. When I go place and people ask me how old he is because his hair is cut, I say two and they look at him like a charity case and I feel that's how people are going to see him at school and daycare. My son is two and look like is 9mths old, he is just starting to grow and only weight 23lbs and not walking nor crawling, he can barely hold his head up. It's hard but I'm trying to deal with it. You say u need someone to talk too I do too, my husband thinks its time have another child but I don't think I'm ready but he don't want to hear that. In the last 3 1/2yrs my body has been through alot, before my son I lost a son, I was 8mths pregnant with tumors which cause my baby to come out stillborn, so I can really use u as a friend too, S. I know prayer can do wonders because that's the only thing that kept me from losing my mind, my husband thought that having another child was the answer but it wasn't, it made me hurt and I'm still hurting because I look at my son and think that it's all my fault that he's like this, my body was not completly healed from the tumor suctions and my lose. I hope I lifted your spirits because you are not in this alone.