C.O.
J.:
I am sooo sorry you are going through this.
You need to prioritize your life.
I know it's hard but you have to.
First things first
1. Job. If you don't have one - find one. Don't be too proud to take a job at McDonalds or some place else - it's a job and that's what matters. You can make a difference. Go to the unemployment office and see what's out there.
2. Housing. If you cannot afford it - go to your local shelter and ask them for help. If you can't do that - then go to your church and talk with the Priest or Pastor. Many churches have slush funds to help people. You would be surprised to find out what people will do for you - there may be someone in your church who has a job for you, a place for you to live and a car for you to drive! I've seen it happen! God is a GREAT resource!! He can make so many things happen for you!
3. Finances - seek out a financial counselor. You need to be able to keep a budget and learn self-control. It's not easy (you are listening to the former queen of "charge it") but YOU CAN DO IT!!! I know live on a CASH ONLY basis and have no credit card debt. It was not easy and it's not always fun - but it's the responsible thing to do.
4. You need to make YOURSELF a priority. No man should ever be your life. This is MY personal opinion - but if you don't like yourself or love yourself - no one else really will either. You have to be responsible for you - you have to make yourself happy and NOT depend upon someone else to do it for you.
There are hotlines you can call as well -
http://www.allaboutcounseling.com/crisis_hotlines.htm
http://www.oneapopka.com/CommunityServices.html
These are just two of the many I found. Read them and reach out to them - they can help you get on the right path.
YOU CAN DO THIS!! NEVER GIVE UP!!!
Trust in God - pray to Him - He will guide you to where you need to be!