I have several issues and several 'life scars'.
I was born 6 weeks preemie. When I was 15m old and started toddling, I dragged my foot. They ran tests and discovered that I had Cerebral Palsy. Don't know what caused it or when.
In my 37 years I have had many surgeries:
- three surgeries on my left leg. Each left a scar. I didn't do the physical therapy like I should and when I was in HS after my 3rd surgery, my leg muscles attrified. This means that my leg is like a stick, while my right leg is fine and the muscles are overdeveloped.
- 2 pregnancies that left 'watermelon' stretch marks on my belly. So much for a bikini!!
- in Oct. of last year I had emergency back surgery that left a 4 inch scar on my back.
So much for the mini skirts and crop shirts! These are my life scars. I try to wear pants instead of shorts and skirts, but that's not always possible. So I have to suck it up and just go. If I worried about what other thought, I would miss walking the beach with my kids, swimming with my kids, enjoying life with my kids.
- I have a friend that has a glass eye. Can't hide that!
- I have a friend with dark skin that has an iron deficiency, so she has pale blotches on her face and arms. Can't hide that!
- there are older ladies that I see on the train with male pattern baldness. That don't hide it. I feel bad for them, but they aren't bothered.
You don't say how dramatic your misshape is, but it may be that the issue is more a problem in your mind then others. Has your husband commented on it? Have you thought of going to a cranial specialist and see if they could help restructure your skull? They are able to do amazing things these days.
What memories will your 5y have of you? A mom that was carefree and fun? Or a mom that was always messing with her hair? Or a mom that wouldn't do things with him/her because she worried what others (whom you probably won't see again!) would think.
Try a liberating excercise. The next time you go out to the store, go somewhere that you don't normally go. Don't fix your hair. See how you feel. See how you are treated. Coming to terms with your appearance with be a weight and worry off your shoulders.
Hugs.
M.