J.H.
hi L.,
i'm a labor and delivery nurse, and i will put my two cents in! i think you might have a hard time finding a doctor that will support your choice, for a couple of reasons. the first thing you need to look at is why did you have c/s before? if your babies were breech or sideways, or there was an emergency, that's one thing. if your labors were dysfunctional, and the babies never came down or you never dilated far enough, or when it came time to push you couldn't push them out (not meaning you were a wimp, meaning either they were big, or your pelvis is narrow, etc), that's another. the second scenarios are more indicative of IF a vaginal delivery is possible or not. the other thing to consider is that your uterus is a muscle, and each time it was cut into (for your two previous c/s), it had to heal, and that scar tissue isn't quite as strong as it was originally... with each subsequent pregnancy your risk of your uterus rupturing during labor increases, and although i can't remember the numbers off the top of my head, i know it's not a huge percentage, but it's also not something to gamble with. and i do believe if it's going to happen, it's most likely to happen in the earlier stages of labor (up to around 4 cms dilated). this is why most physicians choose to schedule a c/s for around 39 weeks gestation-- you're near enough to term that the baby is well developed, your body is more ready to deliver, and *hopefully* you haven't started contracting too much at that point. the question then becomes how do YOU feel about it all? there is a risk that it won't work, there is a risk your uterus could rupture (which really is as big of a deal as it sounds, maybe even bigger!), and there's also the chance that it could work and turn out the way you want it to! i suspect you somehow feel cheated of a "normal" delivery... i myself had a c/s with my daughter, and that's exactly what i felt. and for my next child, i would like the opportunity to try to VBAC (vaginal birth after cesarean) if i could, and if i can't... oh well. the thing is, no matter what way our children come into the world to us, we love them as much as we could-- no one way makes you a better mother, or a "failure" or anything like that. you need to figure out what's important to you, do some research, and find a doctor you trust, and then make your plan from there. good luck and keep us posted!