Its not embarrassing at all. I was married for 5 years, and I know it will sound impossible, but my husband and I were both virgins when we married. I was 23 and he was 30. Unfortunately, he had been taking medications for asthma, and he knew nothing about sex which made it worse. I didn't either. About 4 years into the marriage, I was still a virgin. My doctor was horrified, and wanted to perform a hymenectomy, thinking that was the problem. I was so distraught, and depressed about it, (since I also was supporting my husband financially, that I had an affair with a younger man.
That was the most embarrassing thing to go through, because he knew I was married, and he told me that if he had know that I was still a virgin, he would have been easier on me.
Once I experienced that, I decided to end my marriage,labeled an adulterer. About 25 different men later, I met my soul mate. We have been married 18 years, and together for 20. We have 2 children together, and I have a daughter from one of my lovers, (who by the way, did not want her, but paid child support of 66.00 a month.) After all my children, I was hesitant to not have sex, for fear of getting pregnant again. But, that went away withing 2 months. So don't be discouraged.
I am 55. I am no longer interested in sex. I keep telling myself, that it is a curse because I gave myself to so many different partners. My husband is not a romantic by any means, and he continues to subscribe to Playboy magazine, which makes me feel inferior.
I am looking forward to seeing heaven one of these days...there is no sex up there...Thank God!
The one thing that is always on my hubby's mind is O_ _ _ sex, and that is something I never did that with any of my relationships! Yuck.
So anyway, I wish you well.