L.,
I was in the same situation with both my pregnancy's. I am bipolar & I need to take medicine all the time, not just during pregnancy.
Here's what I was taking while pregnant with my last child:
Wellbutrin, Zoloft, Lamictal, Ambien, Risperdal (this one only during the 8th and 9th month).
His pediatrician checked out my son right after he was born and she said everything looked just fine. My now 18-mo-old is a totally typical toddler.
I can not tell you the guilt I felt while taking all those meds though. But, my psychiatrist said that there are other kinds of risks that can threaten the baby whose mother is severly depressed. You do not want to let yourself tumble so far down mentally that you have to be hospitalized during your pregnancy. That would have been a very real possibility for me.
My doc and I stayed in close contact with eachother and he would not have given me anything that would have compromised my baby. He did say that taking anything like Valium, Ativan or Xanax would be totally out of the question.
Be gentle & forgiving to yourself. The meds do take time to work (sometimes 2-4 weeks). While I was pregnant, I lifted my baby up to God everyday and prayed over him. If you know others that would, ask them to pray for you as well. If it's okay with you, I'd like to lift you and your baby up as well.
If you want to talk more, let me know and I'll give you my email.
1. Don't beat yourself up
2. Take one day at a time
3. Reach out to others for help
4. PRAY!! :)
C.