You are not only normal, you are a wonderful daughter who deserved a more responsible, caring father. He missed out way more than you did, because you would have loved him and cared for him and missed him. He wasn't that person to you, though. His HUGE loss. I am sorry.
My grandmother raised me and she hated me every day of my life, except when I was acting like her servant with the hope that she would come to love me. I gave up on her when I was 17 and decided she wasn't worth it. She went through years of illness after that and finally ended up in a coma for 6 months. I went out of obligation to see her when she was in that coma and I cried my eyes out, not because I felt bad for her but because that horrible person had escaped and only this feeble shell of a pitful old woman was left. The nurse put her arms around me and whispered, "I know she was a wonderful person." What an odd thing to hear.
She died and I was relieved. The guilt, the final longings, the disappointment all were ended. She was gone and I was free.
I have since come to forgive her and have a lot of pity for her, but not love. I feel sorry for a woman who had a tough life and must have been mentally ill to have not loved one grandchild out of many. WHy me? I don't know. What her issues were I don't understand, but they were hers and not mine. I was fine. She wasn't. I'm sad for her, but no longer for me.
You didn't abandon him, he abandoned you and the consequences of that are naturally that you grieved the loss of your father. The man who passed wasn't much of a father any more and you'd alreayd grieved. You're going to be fine. Free yourself. Enjoy being free. You deserve that. You're a good person.
Hugs to you.