It's really hard caring for elderly family members, but it's got it's rewards too.
I have taken care of relatives in my home and at theirs and I also work at a skilled nursing and rehab hospital for the elderly and people who can't care for themselves.
It's really hard when people get older and they realize they can't do all the things they used to be able to do. If they have all their mental faculties, that awareness does set in and often they can become depressed and dispondent. They're just like anyone else and they DO have their days when they just want to be left alone. It's not meant to offend anyone and it certainly doesn't mean they can be without help.
You're mom isn't shunning you. She just doesn't want to give up her last bit of independence.
I have a little aunt that's going through the same thing right now. She is going to be 84 and fell and broke her pelvis. She spent time in the hospital and is now in a nursing/rehab home, but she wants to go back to her OWN home. When my uncle died, and he'd been sick a long time, I hired someone to go in and do her cleaning and laundry and just be there to make sure she didn't fall in the shower, take her grocery shopping, things like that....
She ran her off. She wanted to do everything for herself and thought someone else would need the lady far worse than she did.
Well, we see how that worked out. I told her the other day, not to upset her, but after breaking her pelvis, it makes her sound kinda crazy when she goes on about not needing any help. Her mind is still there, but let's face it, her body isn't what it used to be and there is nothing wrong with having someone stay with her. She has an extra bedroom.
A. It's a job for someone
B. It's for safety. If she gets up in the night to go to the bathroom and falls again, she needs someone there to at least call out to.
It's either that, or she stays in a home with other people in her same boat.
She talks about coming to live with me, but in the next breath she doesn't want to do that either because she wants me to have my own life.
My father in law, God bless him...he was physically healthy as a horse into his 80's, but his mind was gone. There were days he'd say he didn't want his pills or he'd get mixed up and want to build a fire when it was 100 degrees outside, but as far as where he was or who stayed with him....none of that even registered. He went anywhere and everywhere and as long as he was fed and had the TV remote, he was happy.
Try contacting Senior Services resources in your area. Where I live, they have all kinds of neat things for seniors to do. They can have lunch together, they have bingo and outings...they even take them to the casinos if they want to go. They have a little shuttle.
Look into it.
That way, even if your mom has to "give up" some independence to stay with you, she can still have her own social outings and that way she won't feel like a burden.
Talk to her doctor and make sure that she doesn't show signs of depression or withdrawl.
Look for local resources.
I really applaud you for being willing to take care of your mom.
Where I work, I see people who don't have family or visitors and your mom is really lucky. She's just not seeing it that way now.
Just like with my aunt....it comes down to choices. One is stay with family. Two is have someone provide in-home care. Three is live at an assisted living facility.
Sometimes being alone and taking care of yourself just isn't an option anymore. That's a hard thing to accept.
Best wishes! I'll keep you in my thoughts.