So sorry for your prior situation - it must have been so hard to go through.
2 things:
1) I know a lot of nurses and there is a definite phenomena re: self diagnosis, etc. while in nursing school. Big time doubt, thinking something is seriously wrong with them, etc. when it's just a mind game they have played on themselves. **** I know what you went through was real - I mean this more re: the % risks, and what your specific risk is***.
2) "I am scared and dont want to have to do genetic counseling."
I'm confused by this statement... why wouldn't you want to do genetic counseling? Wouldn't it give you facts instead of (the above) nervous - self diagnosed concern?