Hi Kim,
First thing I would like to mention been there and done that. I am a 36 year old women who has 2 wonderful girls. Last year I went in for a pap smear and it came back abnormal. I than had the colposcapy, came back abnormal squallous cells, then had the leep. This came back abnormal and high scallous cells with no margin. Which basically meant everything she had taken out of me during the leep had all abnormal cells. This was a precancerous situation due to HPV (human papaloma viruse). This typically does cause genital warts and put you at risk of developing cancer. Diagnosed positive, never knew I even had it.
Due to my results we (the Doctor and I ) opted to have a full abdominal hystorectomy, leaving in my olvaries. This would decrease the chances that I would start having symptoms of menapause, (ie. hotflashes/night swets ect.) Too bad for me, I now have constant hot flashes. I was lucky though and so are you. I am unable to have any more children, you still may have children but need to wait. I would suggest starting to take prenatal vitamins or folate daily until you are pregnant for 20 weeks. This is something that is recommended for all women planning a pregnancy.
Though, I may not be able to have children any more. I am lucky enough to be around to raise the one's I do have.
I am thankful for a complete exam and complete honesty. However, before I even met with my doctor for the results of the colposcopy, I researched what I could about cervicle cancer. This is always very important to me. My mother would of had me dead and burried before the actual diagnosis could be made. She can be a bit dramatic. But, it also open up needed conversation for the doctor and patient. My OBGYN was so impresses, she actually told me I was precancerous w/ abnormal cells. I repeated to her that I was "carcinoma in situ." She thought I was wrong but when she read the info I had brought, she said "you know what, you are right." I am very impressed most of my patients just take my word for everything.
I believe education is empowering. The more I know about a subject, the more respect that I get as a patient/parent. Nobody knows everything! It is impossible. That goes for even doctors. My suggestion would be to look up cervicle cancer on the net and get as educated as possible and write down any questions that you might have for the doctor. Then call your doctor and set up an appointment to just answer any questions that you may have. Bring another adult with you. Doctors are more willing to listen and answer questions when more than 1 person is in the exam room. If that still doesn't answer your questions, switch doctors or get another opinion.
What does this mean? "Your exam results came back better than expected." This is not a diagnosis, this is a doctor that says all looks well, see me in three months. This did not really leave you anywhere when a question did arise. I would find that statement insulting and aggrevating. Then I would say...."what is the diagnosis?" I would ask him/her to write it down for me, then I would look it up in the computer. Have a medical dictionary with you or very close by. You will probably need it. I have to translate all the medical lingo into understandable english.
So, I guess I wanted to say.... There is always two ways of looking at things (half empty or half full). I understand your dissapointment on having to wait for an increase your family size. I also wanted to have my children about two 1/2 years apart, but it took me 18 months to get pregnant the second time. I do believe everything happens for a reason. I don't know the reasons most of the time but I just leave it in Gods hands. She usually knows what is happening and why, someday we will too.
Good Luck and God Bless you and your family. Write me back if you have any other questions.
H. B.